Everyone aspire to be something in life. We all have big dreams and wish to be great in life.
As children, we want to grow into a adult who is recognized by the impactful things he does in the community. Many say they want to be doctors, lawyers, bankers and even president.
I was once like this. A child who aspires to become something great in life, thereby, making my parent really proud of me.
My love for cars did not start today. It started from a very young age. I enjoyed the smoke from car exhaust and I think of it as pure oxygen. The sounds that comes from the engine is as pleasant as Eminem's new song - Houdini. Growing up, my mom asked me what I wanted to be and I said that I want to be a mechanical engineer. I had a dream of building a flying car. I even started working on it yaknow. Cars with with blades like a helicopter. Not long blades though, short ones.
The thought of this really drives me crazy. The one supporter I had was my elder brother. Always encouraging me and letting me see he importance of doing what I am happy with. He added to my inspiration, guided my steps and I began to construct this using cardboard paper, any plastic I layed my hands on and motors from small fans. That dream died when I left the north. I had everything I wanted in the north but when I left there, it was as if my dream were buried in the soils of the north. I began to feel empty. Devoid of a purpose. I tried to reconnect with my dreams but it was not working. I could not put in the efforts needed, neither could I concentrate and think of new ways to develop my idea. Then, the internet was not easily accessible. We had to pay for some time in the cyber cafe. A hour cost quite a lot. Coupled with the fact that I did not really know how to operate the internet, I let everything go to waste. Even now, I still wish I followed my dreams, built what I wanted but then, I am glad for i am alive to save lives. I still love cars a lot though. Giving the fact that I lost this part of me, I really wish to experience it again. Even if it is once more. The ideas, the support from my elder brother, the criticism from my mom and other things. I really want to be in that moment once more.
After a while, I began to notice how harsh some nurses are in the ward. My friend began to talk about how much pay nurses get per annum. I saw how pregnancy became lost due to mismanagement by the mother. Sometimes, IUFD, IUGR an even Preterm birth. Though eating big during pregnancy is very expensive, I believed that there is always an alternative. The rise of maternal and fetal death became a reoccurring thing in the community. Mismanagement by the personnel managing the pregnancy leads to many casualties to the baby - erbs palsy, hips dysplasia, and many other things without excluding neonatal death. A person will give birth today, in one week, neonatal death will be reported. I decided to go into he medical field. This is how I became a nurse. However, the smiles from my patient after their recovery is one of the best experiences I have ever gotten. Well, not when it reached the time to pay beir bills though. Haha.
Nevertheless, the thank you, God bless you, may you marry a good woman and all that is the best thing that have ever happened to me. Forget about the money, that's just an additional bonus. The major thing is the happiness from my patients recovery. This is another experience I will never want to leave me.
Getting to the stage I am today, life always hits. Troubles everywhere. Mental health always unstable. Constantly thinking of what, why, how, when, where, who, e.t.c. Gradually, I began to fall in love with natural views as it helps alleviate these thoughts. The last thing I will love to experience is the view of earth from outer space.
I have seen many pictures and stuffs of how the earth looks like from outer space. I will love to have a first hand experience. If possible, drop a ribbon in space.
This experience will help me connect to my inner self. Finding peace and tranquillity. This is the ultimate experience I hope for.
Thank you.
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