Love was an unexplored thing to me back then. I didn't experienced it before and I have no idea about it. I don't have a clue that until I realized that I fell in loved to a certain classmate of mine.
I was 14 years old when I experienced love, when I experienced my first true love.
I met a little lady named Rosana, the little lady that make me realized that I fell in love.
There was no magical moment when I first see her, in fact I don't have any feelings about her. YET.
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I was on my third year in highschool, I will be entering a new and different life as I was been moved from the first section to second section.
More than half of my incoming classmates was not familiar with me, new classmates means dealing with a lot of people.
So how do I met this little lady?
I first met her or rather I first noticed her after lunch break.
I was from the canteen and I noticed that inside our classroom has some commotion. I entered the room and saw this little lady arguing with one of my classmate. She noticed me and look at me as I was entering the room, this makes me uncomfortable as the others that are watching them also looked at me.
I just ignore them and head straight to my chair, I just sit and lean my chin on my hand. I try not to give my attention to the two arguing classmates but I guess they really are loud so I sometimes drop a stare at them, especially when they are both raising their voices.
I just noticed that everytime I looked in their way this little lady also stare at me.
It keeps on happening for almost half an hour until our teacher enters the room, me still sitting on my chair and listen to our lesson.
The next day was quite a normal day, I was sitting on my chair and listening to every lesson. My life was quite normal and boring until I felt some chill in my bones. I feel like someone was watching me, I feel like someone was staring at me.
It was a bit creepy, I feel like a person was thoroughly watching me from a distance.
I feel like there were some eyes in front that stare at everything I do (I was sitting on the back part of the classrooom).
Everytime I try to find who that person is, the feeling of stare disappears.
With that I think that the picture at the top of the blackboard was somehow looking at me (Most of the classrooms have the picture of the president infront) or it may be a unnatural thing inside the classroom.
The stare continue for over a week until I caught who was staring at me, it was the little lady from the first day of class. The lady that have an argument to one of my classmate.
I caught her staring at me using her mirror, she was sitting on the front part of the classroom and was using her mirror to look at her back, to look at me.
When I caught her that time she immediately buried her face with her hands and bend towards her arm chair.
I feel relieved that time, the pictures infront and the unnatural things that I suspect staring at me was now relieved to my accusations. I just wait for this little lady to look again using her mirror, I want to let her know that I now caught her.
Lucky her because she didn't repeat staring at me so I just ignore her. Atleast I will not be threatened to this eyes that keeps on staring at me.
Before our first month being a third year student ends, an acquaintance party was held in our campus. Hoping to have some additional grades to the teachers I end up joining the party, I just join the party and head straight to our designated place and wait for the party to end.
I was an indoor cat and don't hang out with the others, until one of my classmate named Leisal approach me. She was asking me to dance her friend, I just smile and shook my head saying that I don't want to dance but she insist.
In the end I was being dragged to the dance floor, there I saw this little lady in blue dress looking at me. This little lady was pushed to me, and was being forced to dance with me.
I feel really awkward that time, not that i was dancing a cute little lady but because she was the one staring at me for over a week. Let's add the fact that I don't really know her and I was here holding her waist.
We dance for over two songs, and she drops a very beautiful smile to me as she said thank you.
A very beautiful smile that makes her eyes smile too.
After our dance I head back to my previous place and wait for the end of the party.
10 pm when the party ends, I was looking for my classmate when this little lady together with her friend approach me again.
I was shocked when the little lady suddenly hugs me tight, I don't know but my hand automatically move hugging her back a little.
She then looked at me again wearing her cutest smile and ran away.
I was there left standing figuring out what just happened.
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Week after the party, I started to received letters from this little lady.
The little lady fell inlove with me and wants to know me better but I refuse. I was not yet ready for this thing called love, also I don't have any feelings for her.
The little lady made many unexpected things back then, she was keeping her self near from me on many activities in the school.
I also found out that she was not really in joining activities like camping and astrocamp in our school but joins just for me. She wants to join every activities that I join in the school, she really as into me.
Personally I feel really annoyed with her keeping herself near at me, i want to be alone in most time but here she is hanging around.
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She keeps on annoying with me for almost 5 months until I make a 1 week absent. I absent because we will be visit in my grandparents in the province of Mindoro.
There i have a very peaceful day, no annoying little lady, no noisy classmate. My mind was really thinking clearly until I notice that I always think of the little lady, I notice myself seeing her face everytime I close my eyes. I also tend to talk about her with my cousin, until she says that I liked her or maybe I already love her.
There I realized that I get used in this little lady annoying me. I also realized that there were many times when I looked for her everytime she was out of my sight. I dreamed of this little lady many times when I was in the province. I missed this annoying little lady that always around me.
This time I realized "I really do fell inlove with the little lady"
I was really excited to go back home, I was really excited in going to school so I try to go to school as early as possible.
I was on the classroom when the little lady enters the room, I saw her looked at me so I give her a smile. But my smile was quite late because she already took her stare away from me, she head straight on her chair and bend toward her armchair like she was sleeping.
She was very cold to me for the whole day, and the next day also, even in the day next to it. She became cold to me until I found out that the little lady doesn't love me anymore.
