I have for some time now had clarity of purpose. I know what I want to do, how and when I plan to do it and how much it will cost me (in time and resources).
My life isn't as complex as I presume life should be and it worries me to a certain degree. While most people I know are trying to figure out their life I am enjoying mine.
You're just 27...you should be out there in the world exploring. You shouldn't be content. You need more; you should want more?
I have found meaning in the little things I do and that has given me closure. Almost everything outside my sphere of influence seems more like a distraction.
I do have dreams and aspirations, but they don't bother me as much. I believe they are within my grasp and everything I am currently doing is moving me towards my goal.
Maybe I shouldn't be this certain about anything? Maybe if I get comfortable the rug might be pulled under my feet? Should I even be afraid of these things?
Why make up problems for myself in order to feel alive? Why can't life be simple and clear? Maybe this closure I have is genuine and I should hold on to it
Earlier today my friend was complaining about his life and I was confused. I could not relate to some of the things he was talking about because he seemed fine to me.
He has food on his table, a shelter over his head, a job and the prospect to earn more, why does he make it seem like he is going through hell?
I know I am not earning as much as I would love. There are many things I can complain about, but on most days I just shake it off. I have enough to even consider other people. That is a luxury.
I think if people are a little grateful they can attract more good things their way. There are a million and one ways my life could go wrong right now but it isn't.
I wake every day with the prospect of changing my life for the better and that is good enough for me. I have been in a situation where I could not help myself and that was one of the darkest times of my life.
Today I have more than I projected for myself, so why should I feel anything but gratitude. I am living the life I want; I do not have to answer to anybody; I can do things for my people and community? What more is there to ask for?