I don't know the words for it. I internalized the whole thing. Shared a few words with people but could hardly get them out. Get to the point where you can think with strength again and just go. Have to somehow find a way to gain from loss, not let it defeat you.

As for everything I do here. I'm nothing without all these people. Quite a few not around and I think about them.

And I can relate to what you said there. I do take my breaks and stuff. Try to get that balance back. They don't really know it yet but most of this I do for them anyway.