I've had pain for a week. My kids are going crazy. I'm having one of those days that just feel like shit.
The kids are screaming.
I just want to rest. I just want some peace. I've created this life where I'm responsible for so much right now. I need a break. I almost want to cry but crying has never brought relief. This is just a stream of consciousness.
It could be that I've neglected my need to release the pressure in my mind. I'm so frustrated I could scream. I did scream. It doesn't help. It really doesn't. Sleep would be good. It's not an option right now.
I have to suck it up and be the adult here because I am THE adult here. There's disharmony here. Something is off-balance. It's most likely me. I'm just taking a moment to let it out. It's quiet now.
I need a break. I need to manage my life better. I have people depending on me. I can't afford to crumble. For their sakes, I can't. I'm going to collect myself. Go quiet, breathe, and settle this house.