If I was asked if I would want to change anything about myself, I’d say no at first but thinking deeper, I think there would obviously be something I would eventually pinpoint and want to change. This morning, I thought deep about what that I one thing I want to change about myself was. It was a long wait because I had to think deep, and then it finally hit me.
The one thing I’d want to change about myself is how emotional I am on most days which leads me to always take things to heart and also the act of not doing too much for people and focusing on myself rather. These two go hand in hand because recently, something happened to me which made me learn that people doing really appreciate what you do for them and at the end of the day, that’s just who they are.
This weekend, I got into a not so pleasant situation with someone close to me and the whole issue was that they needed something from me which I couldn’t give them. Actually, I didn’t even have it to give them because if I did have it, I’d obviously come through for them. But you know what happened? I was labeled as the person who didn’t care about them and couldn’t even do this for them.
Mind you, this was someone I always came through for them. I could even give them the last do everything I have just for them to be happy only for me to get this in such a situation. And guess what? I felt bad and cried. Thinking about it now, I really don’t know why I cried but it was probably because I was hurt by the fact that this person didn’t even appreciate all that I had done for them all this while. But that’s life for you.
So yes, I’d want to change how emotional I am and I’d always want to focus and do more for myself rather than for people who wouldn’t even appreciate it.
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