I've been thinking more about how to turn challenges into opportunities over the last several weeks, specifically in the area of friendships and relationships.
Recently, I have been faced with a few challenges, one of those being how to let a person know that I'm not alright with him overstepping my privacy boundaries. I went as far as acquiring a VPN in an attempt to thwart surveillance from invasive marketers.
Then, began the transition to becoming more independent. I recently left the broadcast, "Revising Reality" I was working with for several months and started my own called "The Unapologetic Truth."
I am still working on getting the pod cast off the ground, with little to no outside help other than that which comes along with the package deal. Not that anyone has volunteered to help really, and most people seem to be truly oblivious to the fact that I was doing the majority of the research work for Revising Reality since I joined in May of 2016.
While my "buddy" was going to concerts, getting tattoos, getting blitzed off his rocker, and stranded on the side of the road on his beloved motorcycle, I was sitting home doing research for sixteen hours a day sometimes, being interrupted during broadcasts and felt truly unappreciated for the most part.
Will I miss being there? No, to be quite frank with you. I won't because I didn't gain much there other than experience. The experience in broadcasting was not truly worth the stress that came along with the technical difficulties arising at the most inopportune times, or the late night phone calls when I was trying to get well needed rest, or feeling as though I truly did not have my own voice there at Revising Reality regardless of how much hard work I put in.
I know how dedicated I am to spreading awareness, and this week I made a point to speak up in a public setting around several other people within my community to share ideas.
My conversation was spontaneous, and even though it took courage to get out of my self induced "shell" I am proud that I took the opportunity that was given to me at the moment instead of sitting there seething inside.
Am I bitter over these challenges, and setbacks? Not really, I'm more saddened than anything and disappointed in myself for expecting other people to use the same measure of kindness with me as I've used with them.
I fully realize that nothing in this life is one hundred percent guaranteed, and I am in control of how things turn out for me.
It is my choice whether I make the best of things, or whether I allow things to get the best of me.
So with that being said, I look forward to healing from these challenges, and using these obstacles to better myself in my personal journey towards self-love, healing, community building, direct action, and broadcasting.
