Nowadays it is normal that if there is something you don't like in a photograph, you simply delete it. Unfortunately, we cannot do this editing process in reality, with ourselves: remove a defect, something that displeases us, that makes us uncomfortable or something we are not satisfied with, just by pressing a button. That, more than science fiction, would be a miracle.

I have to say that at my age I have very little shame in recognizing my flaws, because I know that perfection does not exist, but although I accept myself and do not devalue myself for them, I am trying to work on those behaviors that detract from me as a person. As I tell my friends: I work on my personal operating system on a daily basis.

If there is one thing I would like to change in me, it is the habit of overthinking things. I always analyze everything, I visualize a thousand possible scenarios, I anticipate situations, conclusions, the end of the story. My head has no silence and sometimes this soliloquy tires me, exhausts me and fills me with stress uselessly, because many of the things I imagine simply remain in my imagination and that's it: they do not exist and will never exist. While it is true that this can help me when creating stories, it can also be very overwhelming in my daily life, in my interpersonal relationships. I would like to think less: not to look for the five legs to the cat, as my mother would say. Sometimes things are simple, there is no background, there is nothing to be afraid of.

Another thing I would like to work on is my lack of confidence in myself. I always say that people around me have more faith in me than I can have in myself. It's not lack of self-esteem, it's doubting my qualities, my talent: I'm always minimizing the things I do:

_Did you really do that? -someone exclaims and there I am saying:

_That's easy, even a child would do it.

To be honest I don't know what to do with the applause, with the congratulations: I don't know how to respond to praise. I would like to have that impulse that gives you the vanity to show the colors as a peacock does.

I don't have social filters. If I don't like someone, I just don't deal with them, I don't connect with them. I'm not good at being around people who don't give me a good vibe, who I don't want to be with. My dissatisfaction shows on my face, in my body posture, in my words. I am very transparent in that sense and I do nothing to hide it: I am not where I am unhappy. Sometimes I would like to be more diplomatic, to be less involved, less visceral, less committed to people and causes. On a daily basis I see people who say, “It's a party and that's it. Let's go. I go to a party if I like the people at the party. If I don't, I don't.

In closing, I think it's easy to say that we're accepted as we are, to hide behind the phrase, "We must embrace our flaws," but we know the idea is that every day we can "be the best version of ourselves," and we'll never achieve that if what hurts us, what prevents us from growing, persists. We correct our mistakes in order to move forward. Correcting, changing, that will be our greatest challenge.