It's not always you want to be in crowded places. Sometimes you will feel like being intimidated by just the sound of the voices or just knowing that there are people around. It's good to socialize of course, because the confidence which will be helpful in your everyday activities will be boasted. It's important to have conversations with others to build relationships and then the connection in future references. Don't misunderstand me, going outside will be beneficial for every one of us.
However, sometimes we feel like we don't know what to do. We feel like emptiness can't be filled with the presence of friends or loved ones. You can't explain very well why that is and why you feel like that. From then on, you thought that if someone feels lonely of course, they should be accompanied. To relieve the uneasiness and even the loneliness that sometimes all of a sudden came up. I'm not sure if all of us understand about this matter but upon observing myself, it is.
I went outside for a walk because again I felt like something I wanted to do. I went to the sea so that perhaps something might be removed from this kind of feeling. I wasn't sure what to do, all I was thinking was to divert my thoughts from that kind of thinking and just forgot it.
I was outside and then I saw the children just having fun. Dancing together through to the help of tiktok music and maybe uploaded on Tiktok app as well. I enjoyed a little of my time while watching them and I realized it was still not enough.
I went to the shore hoping to find friends to have conversations with. Just some random conversations just to kill time and of course, to release uneasiness. Unfortunately, there were no single friends but only children playing with their mobile phones.
I was hoping to stay in that cottage near the shore. It's perfect to have a cottage like this right next to the shore. It will give you a relaxing feeling while listening to the sounds of the waves and wind. Also, just by watching the ocean makes you feel free already. I intended to lay down and feel it but it was occupied.
I went to the shore because I really thought this would be a perfect spot for me. There were fishermen repairing a boat so I decided to walk further from them. They were using tools and it's kind of noisy to hear.
Watching the waves splashing the dike and the shore made me forget the lonely feeling. Staring at it with the sounds of it made me feel comfortable. I ended up playing with my phone alone, maybe if people would see me they'd think I'm dramatic or just assume I'm filming a video. I hope they wouldn't think like that because I just wanted to have fun.
I finally realized that sometimes we need our "ME TIME." It's like loosening up the chain or the strings that tie us from overthinking. We need it to avoid being pressured in our thoughts of what's going on right now. I don't know what's pressuring everybody but for sure they are. "ME TIME" helps you to be yourself without boundaries. Do the things that you want even though for others it seems stupid. Don't worry, what's important with that time sometimes is forgetting what other people think.
Enough pretending to be someone because if you will keep yourself being like that you'll fall into depression. Accept yourself in "ME TIME" and be proud of how you become. You deserve it and only you can understand. That's why don't stop yourself from enjoying yourself. We will realize that true happiness will start in ourselves first before finding it in others. It's like you don't need anyone to be happy, you can be happy alone and then be happy with others.
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Paul is the name but prefers to be called mrnightmare that feels like living in the dream. A country boy and a dreamboy (dreamer) who likes to stay in a small village even though it means abandoning the future to become a seaman. The passion is writing but not sailing in the vast ocean. Don't wonder if the face will not be shown, this is better where the words can flow smoothly. Come, have fun with me and be part of my journey while talking about life events and random activities. It's fun to learn about life, don't hesitate, let's figure it out as we continue enjoying staying in this world.
