"I know I didn't do something to distance myself from everyone. I forced myself to be in a place so that they can see me. However, it seems time is not in favour to me. I feel that feeling how it means to be alone."
Just an introduction by the way..
What's up hivers, did you know that I'm feel right now here is like what I'm feeling in reality. Yeah, I need to cross sea for at least 6 hours to see my family. I'm trapped in the city where far from my family. I wanted to go home but it won't happen. Corona is ruining my life, physical and emotional.
I'm feeling kind of lonely these days. Not just afraid of being infected but also afraid of being hungry when this locked down won't end. It became sadder when you'll see yourself away that didn't know what will happen in the future. Especially when there's a threat of your life. I'm a dramatic person so that sometimes I thought bad things.
Actually I was afraid before when justin told us what his plans in steem. But that fear was gone when hive came. I was very happy because at last I have a place to stay whenever I'll feel very lonely. Just express it by writing all the things that makes me sad. However, it's kind of sad because I don't have much audience in my contents most of the time.
I keep on engaging content so that they would share their thoughts as well after reading my content. But it looks like I'm still new here. Not too many people read my post and at the same time does comment. I'm not rushing things but being not able to go out. This is the perfect time for having conversation through content. I thought it's perfect but I guess it's too early to think that way.
Well, everything needs time to come back. That's why I always write especially these days experiencing locked down. I'm not mad for sure, don't hesitate to comment down if you think there's something you can say about my contents. I just hope that I'm not lost at all or I don't lose any of you. I cried when I want to, I smiled when I want to. You can always see me in the corner waiting for someone when they'll feel like wanting me to be with them.
Sorry for being dramatic by the way. You knew me how I write when I was in steem. I'm not asking someone attention or they'll pity me. Just saying that I need someone to make me feel that even sometimes they want me. I'm just so tired of living in my own dreams. I want reality this time, not some crazy fantasy.
image is mine
huawei p8
d' dreamboy,
