Whenever I am Sad or Depressed

No matter how old I get, the things that stand out for me still remain the same. One could think that I don't get sad or depressed about anything or maybe the word depression just seems like a whole lot but it's really not as deep as we think sometimes, cause whenever one speaks of depression, by default our mind goes to emotional torture that could lead to suicide but I feel it's more than just that.
Having known myself for years, I would say with my full chest that the only time you would ever find me sad or somewhat depressed is when I do not have enough money to sort my bills, sort myself or even render help to the people closest to me.

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I'm the happiest when I am able to do the things that matters to me, whether it's sorting bills, being able to buy the things I need for either myself, my family, friends and loved ones.
My joy always knows no bounds whenever I am able to make someone happy, I'm able to help in one way or the other or just a little act of kindness that can put a smile on someone's face. I like to help, I love to help, so when I see something worth doing for someone, I do it without expecting anything in return. I just simply love to put smiles on people's faces. Be it in cash, in kind, in services, I just like the thought of doing something good for someone, it makes me not just happy but satisfied.

So if you ever find me sad, then I'm struggling, and mostly financially, psychologically because a lot is going through my mind and thinking of how to sort myself out. My sadness or depression has nothing to do with emotions, it has nothing to do with love, heartbreak, betrayal etc. I am not saying that I'm above those things, I just do have a way of dealing with that phase of life, so it doesn't lead to me being sad or depressed. I've got much better and pressing things to worry about in life.
I don't know if there is anyone who can relate to this but I believe I'm not alone in this world feeling this kind of way, am I?

                 25 June, 2026