I physically felt like a 70 year old men. My joints hurt, my feet hurt, I couldn’t stand up without help, I couldn’t breath well most of the time either.
Mentally I started having very destructive thoughts. I blamed my family for taking up all my time so I never had any left for me. I started feeling like my wife deserved better and wouldn’t blame him if he has left me. I was extremely short tempered with my kids and was just a mean mom all the time.
Spiritually I had given up all hope I couldn’t stand to be around happy positive people it just brought out the fact that I was extremely negative and unhappy
