All of this began when I first saw him at the school gate, a man with beautiful eyes that seemed to him in his life no burden, only happiness. A man who was able to make the dark clouds in my life disappear, and turned it into a beautiful rainbow. I do not understand what I feel right now, can I fall in love at first sight? If true then this is the first time I feel, fall in love at first sight. I can not believe it, I really like it this fast.
Every time I always think of him, especially his eyes. The eyes really hypnotized me and brought me into his dimensions. The real dimension I've been waiting for, the dimension where there's no burden at all, just happy, laughing and cheerful. He was not very handsome, maybe it could be said standard for people who berpostur high it. But I do not care about his appearance, because I know love does not look at the physical person.
"Kak first, I really like you, no, not just likes, I love you, love you very much", I said to myself while smiling to see him who was engrossed in chatting with his friends in the school cafeteria.
May Later
Indra Pratama, or my usual call kak kak. He is the man who owns the eye of the rainbow and the person I like. Why I call him brother, it's definitely because he's my class. His position is highest in SMK that is class XII. While I'm just a new student there, because I'm new class X.
"Ri, not just in the liatin from far dong, deketin him", said sita. He is my best friend, all my problems I always tell him, including about kak kak.
"Ga ah, scared the same cewenya", I replied with a slightly cloudy face.
It turns out kak kak tudah already have girls, class XI children. And the severity of his cute is the person I first hate in SMK. Not because he's my boyfriend's boyfriend likes, but because emang he's nyebelin, sok ngatur, sok jutek, know everything, just hate really deh same tu people. I'm so confused, not only me who confused all my friends are also confused, how do you want kak kakama same kak kak tika. But yes that's love, strange if keep on thinking. The first time I knew that kak tika is the first kak cewenya, my heart tuh feels rich kesamber lightning, then abis rich in minced pake with a meat knife. Saaakkkiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttt pake really! Pupus had my hopes on him. Unfortunately my passion.
"Nih number hp kak tama", suddenly dita come while giving a piece of paper that contains a number that is none other than no.hp kak tama.
"Serious dit? Where are you from? "I asked her. Do not be surprised, if you also know that people who are not close to me know that I like the same kak, because not only my best friend who knows, but all my classmates.
"Udah lah, riri .. take aja, success ya!", Replied dita with a smile and handed it hard to me, after that she left me and confiscated.
After I can no.hp kak tama, we were often smsan, yes although the response is ignorant. But no problem for me, the important thing I can deket with him. In addition to sms, I also often chattingan same kak first. And lately I really feel close to him. Until finally ga Just him that I deketin, his close friends too. His name is kak hendra, he's pretty fun kid, ga cuek rich kak tama. Although indifferent, but I tetep like kok same kak first, even so prefer. Kak tama ga always ignorant to me, sometimes he is also fun and make my heart beat very fast than usual (but his attitude is actually reasonable if you think about it, nothing more). Every time I open facebook, I always look for him in my chat, or ga I open his profile. Every day I always accompany him online, yes even though ga directly, but can mean I accompany him. That's all I did until he graduated from vocational school, and right now I'm sitting in class XI. When he was in my chat, and a green sign next to his facebook name, I always waited for him until he was offline. It was even then until 3 am, but I never regretted it, because it was a beautiful night. He ngechat me first, wah .. happy me, karna usually always me first. Even then I wanted to shout for joy
"Why not sleep?", I do not think the word came out of him. Actually I want to reply like this, "I'm waiting for you to sleep", but I dare not, I might be hanging with his cewenya. So I told him, if I download games again. Because I know he really likes ngegame, so yes it's okay who knows to be more familiar. We kept chattingan until he was getting tired and sleepy, and he was finally offline. But before offline, he said thanks to me, because I've nemenin him. I'm really rich fireworks ready to slide up and derrr .., broke beautifully. Oh God, I'm really very happy, I'm really grateful to You.
Day after day passed, and after he graduated from vocational school and I never saw him again, my day became a little dark. But I keep the spirit because I can still communicate with him. Until the time came. The moment I'm getting tired of the feeling I'm always in. The feeling I really wanted to tell him. And I'm sure it's time I have to be honest with her.
Thursday, November 29, 2012, exactly at 20:09:06, I stated my feelings to him through sms.
"Kak, honest yes, actually I like same brother, I say nothing, I just want to be honest wrote, in pendem continue also not good, maybe if you say better "
That's what I told him, after collecting my courage for 3 hours before. Soon I got an answer from him. Actually I'm a little disappointed with the answer that, because he even teased me. But I do not mind it, because I'm sure it's all he does because he appreciates my feelings, by not saying painful repercussions.
The day after the incident, I felt that she felt a bit of my presence, because beforehand I felt she just thought I was the wind gone. I'm a little more familiar with him. Said my friend si, that he did because he kasian to me. But I'm sure he's a good man, he could not have pityed me like that. I keep thinking positive and keep doing things I always do. And I intend to always make memories on the 29th of every month, if in februari I choose 27, according to the date of his birth. What memories are, enough me and the god knows.
The day keeps changing, not a shred of taste that changes from me, until I finally get tired of this feeling. I'm tired of it all this time, so many colors he has given me in my life, but still I feel only one-sided love. And this time I really want to give up with kak tika, because their love is so strong, and I can not destroy it. So from now on I'm determined to forget it a bit, though it's hard but I'll try. Actually I do not want all this, but I have to do it, because if I continue to survive in this love, the love that has been 2 years I am immune, that there I will die its karma. To start my intentions that are completely opposite to my heart, I decided to spend a few days alone without communicating with anyone.
Maybe this is excessive, but this is all I can do, if I get closer to him, I will be very hard to forget, because he changed a lot of my life. Possibly only 25%, my silliness will work, and I can forget it. But I do not know, God knows. And I can only pray that this is the best way for me to go. And if maybe later God planned me to meet him again, either with the same or different taste, and with a long or close time, believe me kak first, I will not forget this story, the story where I love you so much