Sometimes my life, your lives and their lives are intertwined. Sometimes life is uncertain and it is not what we want. Sometimes this life we don't understand. However, this life will hold a special meaning for me, for you and for him. " Selmi Fiqhi Khoiriah
“Brukk”
“Sorry, no, not really.” I helped him organize the book and helped him get up. Because of the hustle and bustle of today, I didn't even see people walking around me.
"Yes,
it's fine " The girl about my age patted her skirt and bowed. He got nervous and ran away leaving me. How strange is he, is there anything wrong with my level?
My lyrics are gone, my lyrics are gone. Looks like someone is watching me from behind. Who is he? But it's always gone. Let it go.
This afternoon I plan to take a stroll around my area, usually taking a day off after college. The wind was slowly moving and circling through my shirt. It looks like this is
pretty cool. It suits me, knowing that this hot, stuffy city of Jakarta is very much here. Peak. The air is fresh and clean, unlike Jakarta mixed with dust and other harmful substances. It's good to calm down for a moment. By coincidence Saturday, I didn't go to college. It would have been nice if I had stayed here.
"Huhh" For a while I breathed oxygen and removed carbon dioxide from my body. The moment I hear something, the song ...
“Well hey! S0 much i need to say has been lonely since day the day you went away… Hmmm yeahh… ”That came to my ear about that. Her voice is so beautiful. This song may not be very popular, this song by M2M is a 2000s hit song. But anyone who hears it can be hypnotized to sleep because of its soothing rhythm.
Slowly I started to look for the sound. Who is the person who sang this song? I started walking around looking for the sound. The longer the sound became clearer and louder. I see a girl in a white dress covering her knees while singing a song I mean. His hair is a hair.
"Did i lose my love to someone better and ..."
"Ehm" I cut off the girl's song. He paused and looked back for a moment. He got up from his chair and walked away.
"Hey!" I called him but he was a little rude.
"Hey!" I repeat my call but I receive the same. I tried to follow him, but the pace was getting faster. I tried to run after him but he ran faster. In the foreground there is a thud where I see him turn right. As soon as I turned, there was no one there.
"Ssss" I heard something screaming in my head. I felt a deep breath behind my neck. My hair is starting to get up.
"Su .. Su .. what's that sound?" I was stunned.
"Aaaa" I yelled.
"Huhhh" Breathing in my breath, the cold sweat started raining on my face and neck. I had a bad dream. What a strange dream, I was walking with a girl who didn't know who she was, but there was a girl who looked almost like us. We got scared and ran, without even looking at a car coming at us and ... I woke up. My head aches.
1:12, that's what the digital clock says on my desk.
"Thirsty" It seems like my throat is dry because of that. I turned on the switch and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I sat for a moment, suddenly passing a white shadow in front of me.
"Astaghfirullahal'adzim" I took another glass of water and gasped and went back to sleep. Forget about it, just hallucinate my mind.
“Sssffs” I drank a cup of warm coffee in my hand. My eyes are on white-haired, hairy women. She looks just like the girl I met yesterday at a park where I was chasing after her.
"Hey!" I approached her and smiled at her. She responds to my smile as sweetly as possible.
"Do you want to sit down?" She moved around a bit to give me a seat next to her.
"Thanks" I sat there. I looked at her a bit but she was quiet.
"Why? Is something wrong with me? ” He seems to be aware of my gaze. Shame, shame.
"Oh no, I think I've seen your nose stick. You sang yesterday at the summit, didn't you? " Hearing what I said the girl laughed. What's so funny about me?
"Why are you laughing?" I asked.
“I just laughed like this again. Your questions are so funny. " He's back. It's funny. I just laughed with her. She seems cool and has just met me already. But I think I've heard this laugh.
"Eh, BTW what's his name?" I'm starting the conversation again.
"Twilight. Princess Sivia Twilight ”She held out her hand to me as she smiled. I shake his hand and develop my smile.
“Rashid.”
Tonight I was walking around my apartment. It's like my saturday night alone. Considering I was still alone, tonight I was only accompanied by the night wind and the stars that were approaching my night.
"Astaghfirullahal 'adzim" The white shadow came again. I blinked my eyes a few times while calming my heart. It's a hallucination just a hallucination. There are no ghosts.
"Rashid" Someone called my name, I turned around. I saw a white-haired girl wave at me. She smiles sweetly at me but her face looks a little pale.
"Twilight, what are you doing here?" I approached her.
"Looking for some fresh air, are you alone?" She smiled at me, and we walked around the apartment.
“It's just boring to see someone greet his girlfriend with his girlfriend. It's better for me to stay here. " I was sitting in a chair near the park. Dusk stared at me warmly, her eyes were so beautiful that I had never felt this way. A quiet view.
"Where's your girlfriend?"
"Nothing." I answered briefly. He just kept quiet.
"Are you cold? Just put on my jacket. " I added my words while pinning my black jacket on. It looks like he's really cold. Look at his pale face and cold hands.
"Thank you" He smiled at me. I hugged her, there was a slight mumble in her face. The more I held her, the more she held me. I laughed and laughed.
"Huhh, huhh" My breath is still fresh, always the same. It's been 3 nights since I dreamed the same thing, the same time, the same place and the same never finished. I always woke up when I was almost hit by a car with that girl. What exactly does this dream mean? What's wrong?
What a strange dream. And every time I wake up at 1:12 it says in my heart. Tired of this dream.
Maybe superstition can calm me down and forget about that dream. I got up to go to the toilet and turned on the water faucet and started wiping with water one by one. It's really cold. I started to pray and pray and pray to Him to keep away from things I did not want. When I finished folding my prayer and I looked out the window.
"Astaghfirullahal'adzim" The white-haired girl looked at me with tears in her eyes.
"Hot" I said myself commenting on the weather this afternoon which is not very friendly to me. The sweat mixed with dust began to penetrate my body, eager for me to plunge into the river to enjoy the fresh air. But what else? Every day except Saturday and Sunday is always the way I am. Busy college in a metropolitan city. Unfortunately, Dad told me not to drive here. So every time I have to wait for the bus.
I got off this bus. It seems like everyone feels the same way here, they feel the heat. Right in front of the stop I saw a familiar girl in my arms. Twilight.
"What are you doing here at dusk?" I approached her, she was daydreaming. I think I'm a bit surprised.
"Rashid, it's okay" He showed his face without expression. Her face is a bit pale. I grabbed her hand and felt cold. His hands are a bit soft.
“Are you sick of dusk? Your face is very pale, and your hands are cold. You look drowning. " Somehow I became worried about him, put my hand down and he kept quiet and walked. I followed her, she stared at me smiling. Pretty girl.
"Well i wonder, could it be, when i was ..." She hummed but I stopped her.
"At dusk, you sing the same song as the girl I told you at the summit. Her hair is the same dress, but there is a slight difference in your eyes. " Dusk stopped listening to it. He looked at me for a moment and then posted a photo of 2 girls around 13 and a young man about the same.
"Who is he?" I asked him.
“The girl on the right is the Voice. She's my sister. I love her so much. And next to me is me. " Obviously. I stared at the picture in jelly. The sound of Sound and Dusk is almost identical, his face radiates happiness and the youth embraces the warm sunshine.
"Was the Voice singing at that time?" I asked.
"Maybe" He replied, I look back at the photo.
"Who is this young man?" I asked again,
"I have not been able to tell you and a young man about the same age.
"Who is he?" I asked him.
“The girl on the right is the Voice. She's my sister. I love her so much. And next to me is me. ”Obviously. I stared at the picture in jelly. The sound of Sound and Dusk was almost identical, his face radiating happiness and the youth embraced Sejan warmly.
"Was the Voice singing at that time?" I asked.
"Maybe" He replied, I look back at the photo.
"Who is this young man?" I asked again
"I can't tell you yet. You'll find out for yourself later. "
Tonight I'm really hungry. My fridge is empty. Maybe I should go shopping again. Fortunately my apartment isn't too far from the supermarket. While traveling at night.
I put two white packages in my hands. The journey back is about 10 minutes. Not far. Every night I go through this park. At night it is a bit lonely.
"Call me crazy call me blind to still be suffering is stupid .."
There was another one singing it. My heart was racing to find out who sang the song. I saw the white-haired girl.
"Voice" I called him as he glanced at me and ran. I went after him and lost.
“Rashid do you remember? It's Rashid! I've always been waiting for you Rashid! You used to love me so much! I know you've forgotten Rashid! But remember! Remember me Rashid remember! Wake up. ”
“Hhahh” Another nightmare. My head feels heavy. This time it's a different dream. A girl called me, but she wasn't there. He forced me to remember it. But I don't know, I really don't know who he is.
I don't know why this afternoon I'm so excited. I always remember dusk. It's weird that I really want him to come to me now.
"Rashid, do you miss me?" Suddenly Dusk came. He seemed to read my mind. I was just smiling at her. It's weird that I really want to be alone with him. That girl has made me comfortable. I don't want to lose it. I wish I couldn't escape today to see her. Today it seems like I'm going to lose it forever.
"Don't you miss me? Yes, I'm home. " She was gossiping on her own, she was about to leave, but I held her hand tightly. She sat beside me to understand what I wanted.
"Is the Voice still alive?" She was shocked to hear what I said.
"Why do you ask that? Are you in love with her? " The answer I didn't expect came out of him. I'm shaking.
"I've just never seen you with him. Why?" I asked him for a moment. Think about what he'll answer. She turned her gaze on me. She's looking at me warmly. His gaze couldn't help me to hold onto a very strange feeling in my heart.
"Stop looking at me like that! You just have to answer. I can't stand it. ”She stopped looking at me.
"There are things that I and the Voice can't do. That's the answer. I can't force it. Why do you ask that? " She asked me back as soon as I remained silent, she started to grab my hand. She held it tight. I could feel something through the vibration of his hand. It's the same thing as me. She looked back at me with a warm glare. I respond to him, I look at him deeply. There was an uneasy look in his eyes. I don't know what he was getting into.
"I'm just asking. I wonder why the Voice always gets away when I approach it. He always disappeared as soon as I chased after him. I often feel weird when I see her. Honestly, he died? So that what I see is just a ghost? " Dusk just kept quiet. Maybe my words are too rude. It's true that the Voice is dead, he just loved it and didn't let it go. So silence is the best answer he can think of.
"Yes, done. It's not important anyway. It's better to share a good story. " I smiled as sweetly as she could, she developed her thin little lips. We were sharing stories back then. There are so many things I tell her that I can't write here about me. But there's not much twilight to tell. We laughed like a couple.
"It's been so long since I've missed these days, it has calmed me down." She said as she smiled at me. I threw the sweetest smile I ever had on him.
"I'll definitely miss this moment. I will. Hmm I miss the Voice. ” I was surprised to hear him say that. He just stared at me in surprise. I glanced at her and gazed at her small round eyes with love. Is this love? Things I've never opened to anyone again.
She just bowed. I held my lips close to her and I kissed her forehead and hugged her in a warm hug. I can feel her body cold and light. I can feel her heart.
"Don't leave me at dusk. I feel comfortable with you. ”I held her close, but I felt a warm breeze fall into my hands.
"Today will be a great day for me. I'll never forget today. Even the smallest things I can't forget, including you, will remember. Really remember. ” She started to hold me a little. I feel something strange. That's strange.
"Twilight, do you know how I feel right now? I hope you understand. I feel like I've done this before. But I don't remember. I've had this taste too. Something is weird in my heart. What is that? It's weird that I've always wanted to be with you. Is this love? If so, I want to say that I love you in the evening. Love you so much! ” Dusk suddenly released her hug. He stood up and stared at me with tears in his eyes. I was surprised, did I say something wrong? She ran away from me. I want to feel him chasing after him but my legs feel really stiff. I can feel what his little heart is saying. The wind whispered to her.
"I know Rashid. But I'm sorry. "
