Estoy segura que si, estos d铆as lo estoy viviendo en carne propia. Normalmente yo suelo dar toda mi confianza, respeto y admiraci贸n por mis afectos. No tengo por qu茅 dudar de su reciprocidad. Sin embargo, muchas veces me lastiman porque no todos son mis amigos o quieren tener una conexi贸n real conmigo.
Hace poco me pas贸 que una persona a quien le abr铆 las puertas de mi ser por completo sin miramientos ni l铆mites, me ech贸 al abandono con el l谩tigo de la indiferencia. Seg煤n, la raz贸n es que yo me acerque a otra persona con la que por cuestiones laborales debo entablar cierta confianza para hacer equipo y sacar el trabajo. 脡sto me cost贸 el hecho de tener a la otra persona tranquila y confiada de que nuestro cari帽o es honesto.
Eso me hizo pensar en varias cosas, muchas veces las personas quieren amar, querer o conocer a otros en forma exclusiva y sin que puedan hacer m谩s conexiones con otras personas de forma ego铆sta. Yo no soy as铆, yo adoro la libertad. Amo poder compartir cosas con diferentes personas porque todas son parte de m铆. No compagino la idea de tener que dejar de compartir con otros porque una amistad nos quiera para ellos nada m谩s. Es como cuando uno est谩 en el liceo y las amiguitas no te quieren compartir.. cosa que jam谩s estuve de acuerdo y me parece absurdo adem谩s. Pero, a est谩s alturas soy demasiado grande como para estar en esas historietas.
S茅 bien que cada persona carga su propio saco de dudas, reflexiones, vivencias y cari帽os fallidos. Esos mismos que van moldeando tu personalidad. Ahora bien, considero que eso mismo tiene que hacerte ver d贸nde no quieres volver a estar y no comer esos errores que te hicieron da帽o. Por eso buscar la mejor forma de reaccionar es lo mejor.
Es imposible negar que me siento triste por perder su cari帽o, que me duele ver c贸mo me ech贸 a un lado injustamente, pero eso mismo me hace tomar la fuerza necesaria para comprender que no hice nada malo y que si fuese realmente un v铆nculo importante lucharia por estar a mi lado. Y no alej谩ndome son raz贸n alguna.
Hoy dejo est谩 reflexi贸n aqu铆 porque me aprieta el pecho, me sofoca y a veces me dan ganas de llorar el ver porque me abandono as铆. Si, me siento triste 馃槩 pero no podemos obligar a nadie a permanecer a nuestro lado. Lo mejor ser谩, seguir adelante. Y dejar atr谩s lo que se tenga que dejar..
Gracias por leerme 馃槣
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Is there such a thing as mourning for friendship?
I am sure it does, these days I am living it in my own flesh. Normally I usually give all my trust, respect and admiration for my loved ones. I have no reason to doubt their reciprocity. However, many times I get hurt because not everyone is my friend or wants to have a real connection with me.
Recently it happened to me that a person to whom I opened the doors of my being completely without regard or limits, threw me to the abandonment with the whip of indifference. According to her, the reason is that I got close to another person with whom, for work reasons, I have to establish a certain trust in order to make a team and get the job done. This cost me the fact of having the other person calm and confident that our affection is honest.
That made me think about several things, many times people want to love, want or know others in an exclusive way and without being able to make more connections with other people in a selfish way. I'm not like that, I love freedom. I love being able to share things with different people because they are all part of me. I don't like the idea of having to stop sharing with others because a friendship just wants us for them. It's like when you're in high school and your friends don't want to share with you... something I've never agreed with and I think it's absurd. But, at this point I'm too old to be in those stories.
I know well that each person carries his own bag of doubts, reflections, experiences and failed affections. Those same ones that mold your personality. Now, I consider that this has to make you see where you do not want to be again and not eat those mistakes that hurt you. That's why looking for the best way to react is the best thing to do.
It is impossible to deny that I feel sad for losing his affection, that it hurts me to see how he threw me aside unjustly, but that makes me take the necessary strength to understand that I did nothing wrong and that if it was really an important link he would fight to be by my side. And not walking away for no reason.
Today I leave this reflection here because it tightens my chest, suffocates me and sometimes makes me want to cry to see why he abandoned me like this. Yes, I feel sad 馃槩 but we can't force anyone to stay by our side. The best thing will be, to move on. And leave behind whatever has to be left behind.....
Thanks for reading me 馃槣
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