The above image was made with stable diffusion using the prompt 'glowing wires in a brain.'
Some people grow up in stable environments and go on to lead normal lives. I'm not one of these people. My upbringing was twisted by abuses at the hands of prominent community members. Then my twenties and thirties were largely consumed by chronic illnesses. Part of how I processed these challenges was by writing about them in Navigating Dystopia. I also appeared on a podcast about the misdeeds of my childhood mentor.
These days, as a man in my forties, the difficulties of my formative years usually feel far away. My years of illness feel somewhat closer, but only because they happened more recently. These unhappy elements of my personal history will probably never entirely go away. But they have become quieter over time.
In their place, I've found more and more motivation to shine light into the world's darkest corners. International pedophile networks. Mind control programs. Medical malfeasance. Food system corruption. My personal experience with these things makes me absolutely relentless in researching and talking about them.
There are moments when my past comes up unexpectedly. I'll feel a little too strongly about something or encounter triggering material in the environment. New trauma can also bring up old trauma as new feelings resonate with old ones. Laying these to rest is never a final thing. It must be done again and again.
In the brain, memories are stored as maps of associations, and experiences are encoded to a depth corresponding with the intensity of the experience. Traumatic memories can be deeply encoded and connected to all kinds of other stuff. Over time, the brain can be rewired to give progressively less power to the trauma. New associations replace old associations and bad memories are made to fade.
In the course of healing my own wounds, I became acutely aware of how many other people are walking around, burdened by unprocessed trauma. Millions of people. Maybe tens of millions. Maybe more.
Every personal trauma has a social dimension that's rarely talked about. And some healing requires a community context which typically doesn't exist in our society. In my situation, social reality has more often hindered my healing than aided it. Economically and politically, distress is more profitable than wellness.
People in distress are fearful. They obey authority. People who are hurting buy goods and services in hopes of feeling better. And unprocessed trauma is weaponized by the control regime in a variety of ways. How different would the world look if more of us were healed?
Read my novels:
- Small Gods of Time Travel is available as a web book on IPFS and as a 41 piece Tezos NFT collection on Objkt.
- The Paradise Anomaly is available in print via Blurb and for Kindle on Amazon.
- Psychic Avalanche is available in print via Blurb and for Kindle on Amazon.
- One Man Embassy is available in print via Blurb and for Kindle on Amazon.
- Flying Saucer Shenanigans is available in print via Blurb and for Kindle on Amazon.
- Rainbow Lullaby is available in print via Blurb and for Kindle on Amazon.
- The Ostermann Method is available in print via Blurb and for Kindle on Amazon.
- Blue Dragon Mississippi is available in print via Blurb and for Kindle on Amazon.
See my NFTs:
- Small Gods of Time Travel is a 41 piece Tezos NFT collection on Objkt that goes with my book by the same name.
- History and the Machine is a 20 piece Tezos NFT collection on Objkt based on my series of oil paintings of interesting people from history.
- Artifacts of Mind Control is a 15 piece Tezos NFT collection on Objkt based on declassified CIA documents from the MKULTRA program.