Perhaps, it is time to purge and really start anew, to make room for something better.
As I am writing this, I am also waiting my laptop to be completely purged so that it is ready to be sold. My old laptop has been with me through ups and downs for the last 3 years and half. It has seen multiple places, with me through thick and thin. The data that I had there was more than I could remember but I chose not to migrate everything. I purge it completely and though it felt strange in my gut, I felt more liberated that I am really starting anew.
Somehow, I was reminded the goal I made this year and 4 out of 10, I made it. Well, while not everything goes according to plan, though I land more acquisition project (it was such a low paying job, I got paid $60 and all goes to my debt. The good news is that my current debt is lowering by a lot and I am going to be a lot freer this coming year.
Since Christmas is in 2 months, I am already planning the gifts I can get for my church and the family I got from there, so that's definitely another win. This is why I believe that when you write your goal out there, some of them might just work.
| Goal | Status |
|---|---|
| Apply for more jobs and land more land acquisition projects | Achieved |
| Look more put together | Achieved |
| Fix the roofing at my house | ❌ Not achieved |
| Install AC at my house | ❌ Not achieved |
| Ask my boss to upgrade my laptop for work purposes | achieved |
| Attend Hive Fest 11 :D | ❌ Not achieved |
| Go back to Biak, Papua and contribute to the local community | ❌ Not achieved |
| Travel overseas for a week (depends on saved budget, end of 2026) | ❌ Not achieved |
| Afford Christmas and a family holiday, including family gifts | On-going |
| Budget my money better | Achieved |
Anyway, other than that I learn to let go more of things this year. Pride, ego, things that no longer has a place in my life. I am pretty surprised how far life has taken me. In the end, life is a cycle of letting go. The less you get attached to things, the better it is. And as I get older, I get better at letting go instead of holding on to anything that doesn't serve me a purpose. Most of the things that I don't let go is the actual reason why I am constantly saying I am stuck or feeling like I have nothing.
𝘊𝘦𝘮𝘺 (𝘰𝘳 𝘔𝘢𝘤) 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵, 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘶𝘳, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘮𝘣𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘬. 𝘏𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘶𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯: 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴? 𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭, 𝘨𝘦𝘰𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘩𝘺, 𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘦𝘴, 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦, 𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘩𝘯𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘰𝘣𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵. 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘸𝘪𝘮𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘴. 𝘍𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘯 𝘏𝘪𝘷𝘦, 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘣 𝘢 𝘤𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺. |