Sometimes, my mind feels full. Not always in a bad way. It can be worries, stress, pressure… but also excitement, too many ideas, too much energy. I realized that both negative and positive emotions, when they come too strong, make me lose my focus. I start feeling like I can’t hold my thoughts properly. Everything is flying around inside me, and I can’t concentrate on anything solid and stable.
In those moments, or just before the storm if I feel, I take one step back. Just one minute by myself. I close my eyes, breathe slowly, and imagine this: all my thoughts and feelings turning into paper boats. Worries, hopes, pressure, plans — each one becomes a small paper boat. Then I place them gently on the river that flows through my vision, and I let them float away.
This is what I call my mental wash down.
It’s not about throwing away emotions or pretending they’re not there. No. It’s more like washing my mind, letting the extra layer go. Like washing my hands when they are full of dust or sweat — same with the mind. I let go of what I don’t need to carry. Not to erase the feeling, but to keep it in balance.
I found out that even joy, when it’s too much, can make me restless. For example, sometimes I’m very excited to do something — a new project, a trip, or even a conversation I’m looking forward to. But that excitement brings a storm of thoughts: “What should I say?”, “What if it goes bad?”, “I must do this and that!” It becomes a hype in my brain, but instead of helping me, it makes me scattered. I can’t focus. I can’t do anything properly.
In those moments, this small mental practice helps a lot. I close my eyes, imagine all those jumping thoughts, and I let them go, gently, into the water. Like a small river inside me. The boats carry them. The water flows. After that, I feel lighter. More calm. Not empty — just clear.
And I noticed something else too, about how I think of the future. Because some of these uneasiness with thoughts surface itself while trying to project the future into a some sort of template. During the process I become overwhelmed with the possibilities and details.
I started to think of future moments like weather. Some days are sunny, some rainy. Sometimes it snows. Sometimes it’s dry and clear, sometimes humid and heavy. These weather conditions — they happen not because of something I did wrong or right. They just happen independent of my existence. So it can not be as if everything is about me. The important part is that I’m there, at that moment and that place. That’s why I feel the weather. I experience it because I exist in that point of time.
Of course, not everything is random. If I punch someone, probably I will get punched back. If I act kind, maybe I will receive kindness. But even those actions — after they are done — they are part of the past already. Like ink on paper. I can’t take them back. They are done, engraved.
So why to waste energy worrying about something I can’t change anymore? Or something that hasn’t even happened yet?
This is why I always try to come back to now. This moment. My moment.
I believe that every single moment is a building block of my life. And I must have the courage to face each one. No matter if it’s bright or heavy, warm or cold — like the weather — I need to stand there and meet it. Because it is an event that will happen.
I don’t always do it perfectly. I still overthink sometimes. I still get nervous, or excited, or anxious. But now I have this simple tool: mental wash down. It’s like my way of grounding myself, cleaning the dust off my inner world. It helps me to start again, even multiple times during the same day.
And it’s simple. Anyone can try it. I just take one minute, sit or stand quietly, and imagine my thoughts becoming paper boats, or clouds, or leaves — whatever fits. Then I let them float away. I don’t chase them. I don’t try to sink them. I just let them go.
After that, I return to my body, my space, my time. And I breathe.
Sometimes, I try to carry too many emotions at once — good or bad — and it makes me mentally tired. But life doesn’t ask me to hold everything all the time. Life only asks me to show up for each moment, with as much awareness and heart as I can give.
And when the future arrives like a storm or sunshine, I will be there — ready to feel it, ready to live it, because I didn’t waste my energy drowning in what I couldn’t control.
Image by Riad Tchakou from Pixabay
I’m still learning how to do this. Still learning how to let go. But this little practice, this mental wash down, is helping me a lot. It gives me a moment of peace, and sometimes, that one moment is enough to change my whole day.
So if my mind ever feels too full — not just from sadness, but also from excitement or pressure — I try to wash it down. Let it flow. Let it go. And come back to my now.
That’s where my real life is.
All the best…
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