April was such a slow month, my goodness! I literally kept counting down every day, wondering why exactly we were still in April.
It felt like I spent two complete years inside that one month.
Looking back, I can't help but try to analyze why I felt that way. Maybe because I got so busy, I hardly had time to even watch a movie or write. But then, if I indeed was so busy, what are the chances that May does not promise the same for me?
April was a type of month that passed without any form of excitement. I wasn't bored, I just wasn't excited either. I was just there. Wondering if this is what adulthood truly is about?
Waking before the day wakes, staring into the abyss for at least 20 minutes, wondering if this is how I want to live my life, before resolving that I have to get ready for the work that pays me enough money to survive adulthood right now. Getting to work and forcefully smiling to greet everyone when I don't even want to talk that morning.
Anyway, you get the gist. That was basically what I spent April doing. And even worse, I had no Me Time. I didn't even take any pictures in April, can you imagine? That's how bad it was.
I had to work on weekends. And despite how busy I was, wasn't I supposed to feel like the time was fast?
I guess it's true what they say, then. Time runs really fast when you're with or doing something you love.
While I don't necessarily hate my job, I know for a certain fact that this is not the life I chose, this life chose me, forcefully. lol.
I either succumb or I suffer.
Now, I'm on a mission to look for a cheat sheet because, obviously, there must be. Those adults who are handling 9-5, yet are on a boat cruise every other weekend, I want to learn how they do it.
Because if there's anything that can compensate for all this time I'm putting into survival, it'd be having some ME time at the end of the week's work.
Meanwhile, I'm challenging myself to write consistently and be present to be more interactive for the next 30 days, so that's basically the whole of May. I'm putting this out there so you guys can hold me accountable. 😂
Do have a wonderful month!
The photograph belongs to me.
