Saludos amigos 馃, les dejo este post dedicado a una persona importante para m铆, a quien le agradezco enormemente haberme convertido en la persona que soy hoy en d铆a 馃挅馃尲.
Greetings friends 馃, I leave you this post dedicated to an important person for me, to whom I am extremely grateful for having made me the person I am today 馃挅馃尲.
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Hace muchos a帽os por un tiempo bastante largo me sent铆 herida por el universo y lo que me hab铆an hecho cuando te hab铆an arrancado de m铆, fueron momentos dif铆ciles donde lo 煤nico que quer铆a era despertar de esa pesadilla que parec铆a no tener fin.
Los d铆as pasaban y era como si estuviera en una especie de limbo desprotegido donde no hab铆a ni siquiera paredes para sostenerme, era como si estuviera sobre una tabla flotando en el oscuro universo infinito donde solo sent铆a mucho dolor y escalofr铆os.
Ma帽anas que parec铆an tardes, tardes que parec铆an ma帽anas, los d铆as pasaban y yo ni cuenta me daba de todo el tiempo tan largo que pasaba, era como si estuviera permanentemente en un fr铆o invierno donde el verano jam谩s llegaba.
Los d铆as se volvieron a帽os, y los a帽os se volvieron d茅cadas de inviernos que se prolongaban, pero siempre cesaban, por peque帽os momentos, pero cesaban. S铆, tanto tiempo as铆 sucedi贸, fue demasiado, pero yo ni siquiera me di cuenta porque solo imaginaba un d铆a en el que pudiera estar contigo en esos peque帽os momentos.
En ese tiempo cuando no te ten铆a cerca de m铆, algunas veces en mis sue帽os te vi, parec铆as la imagen m谩s hermosa del universo, un universo distinto al que yo conoc铆, uno maravilloso, esta vez con muchas luces de colores dispersas por infinitos lados, uno donde solo hab铆an seres 煤nicos y especiales y justo en ese momento lo entend铆, comprend铆 lo que siempre hab铆as mostrado para m铆.
Entend铆 que realmente ese siempre fue tu lugar, que estar conmigo a nuestro lado ya no pod铆a soportar tu aura de belleza e infinita bondad, t煤 nunca perteneciste a este plano terrenal, t煤 siempre fuiste un ser especial enviado para brindar luces en todos lados.
S铆, enviado a nosotros, tu familia, esa que te vio nacer, partir y que desde ese d铆a le cost贸 demasiado entender lo que era vivir un d铆a sin ti, pero a las cuales de alguna forma le diste la fuerza necesaria para vivir el resto de la vida sin ti.
Intent茅 siempre ser la fuerte de la familia cuando ten铆as que irte, se supon铆a que era mi responsabilidad, se supon铆a que me estaba preparando para protegerlos a todos y no pude hacer absolutamente nada m谩s, as铆 que cuando te perd铆 ya no supe si deb铆a ese camino continuar.
Ayudar a otros no tendr铆a sentido para m铆, si no hab铆a podido ni proteger la raz贸n por la que hab铆a decidido dedicarme a lo que un d铆a hab铆a escogido junto a t煤. Renunci茅 ese d铆a de mi vida, lo hice, me sent铆 destrozada en cuerpo y alma, eso en lo que yo cre铆a no hab铆a hecho nada, ni por t铆, ni por mi alma.
Pero una ma帽ana sent铆 un abrazo de esperanza que me dec铆a que continuara, que aun si no estabas f铆sicamente al lado m铆o, tal vez en ese lugar ser铆as feliz si yo continuaba y que ser铆a tu orgullo verme graduada el d铆a que lo lograra.
Pasaron muchos a帽os despu茅s de eso y un d铆a despu茅s de mucho crecimiento por fin lo que nunca pude ver lleg贸 a m铆, entend铆 que me has acompa帽ado siempre, eres como esa lucecita que en las oscuridades siempre aparece al yo estar presente.
Desde ese momento te sent铆 m谩s conmigo y en las noches oscuras cuando tengo fr铆o y no puedo dejar de pensar en el destino, siempre siento que apareces y est谩s conmigo justo al lado m铆o, es como un abrazo c谩lido que me das en el alma, pongo mi cabeza en tu regazo y mi alma descansa.
Las veces que en mi vida tristemente me han lastimado, siempre te he sentido a mi lado record谩ndome todo lo que me has ense帽ado. Mi misi贸n, s铆 esa que t煤 me dejaste cuando te fuiste, la que aprend铆 a la fuerza, pero me hizo convertir en una experta.
Experticia que muchas veces para m铆 misma no funciona mucho, pero me sirve para llenar el vac铆o de otros muchos, con eso es suficiente porque siento cobijo y que mi destino siempre estuvo escrito, no fue todo sin sentido, no fueron solo azares del destino.
S铆, ese destino que siempre me ha guiado, ese que me ha hecho avanzar aun en las dificultades, que me ha levantado las veces que he deca铆do y que me ha hecho sonre铆r sintiendo que estoy siempre contigo al escuchar un "Te felicito" de alguien a quien he ayudado o leer un "Gracias" en alguna parte, de a quienes un pedazo de m铆 les he dejado.
Porque, s铆, aun cuando en ese momento fue dif铆cil para m铆 comprenderlo, con el pasar de los a帽os lo he asimilado, termin贸 siendo m谩s f谩cil para m铆 ponerme en el lugar de aquellos que pasan por momentos dif铆ciles emocionalmente porque yo tambi茅n los hab铆a pasado.
Tambi茅n es f谩cil para muchos aprender de teor铆a y escritos que pueden leer en muchos lados, pero nunca ser谩 lo mismo que alguien te entienda porque ha pasado por algo parecido a lo tuyo en el pasado.
Por muchos momentos pens茅 que era una gran debilidad para m铆, que mi sensibilidad era algo que no deb铆a existir, hasta que comprend铆 que realmente es un s煤per poder, que te fuiste, pero me lo dejaste para crecer.
As铆 que hoy que he avanzado, que ya he decidido hace mucho tiempo que a煤n sigues conmigo y no en el pasado, te dedico este escrito por todo lo que me ense帽aste y lo que me hiciste crecer a partir de ese instante.
Mi adorada hermana espero que est茅s orgullosa de m铆 est茅s donde est茅s, no tanto por lo material que he logrado, sino por lo fuerte que en retrospectiva siempre intent茅 ser para enorgullecerme a m铆 y a ti tambi茅n, tus flores favoritas siempre me han acompa帽ado, as铆 que en tu honor las coloco a lo largo de este post que te dejado, como promesa de que cuando te vuelva a ver yo misma te las dar茅 con un fuerte abrazo.
Many years ago for quite a long time I felt hurt by the universe and what they had done to me when they had torn you away from me, they were difficult moments where the only thing I wanted was to wake up from that nightmare that seemed to have no end.
Days passed and it was as if I was in a kind of unprotected limbo where there were not even walls to hold me, it was as if I was on a board floating in the dark infinite universe where I only felt a lot of pain and chills.
Mornings that seemed like afternoons, afternoons that seemed like mornings, the days went by and I didn't even realize how long time passed, it was as if I was permanently in a cold winter where summer never came.
The days became years, and the years became decades of winters that were prolonged, but always ceased, for small moments, but they ceased. Yes, so much time like that happened, it was too much, but I didn't even realize it because I only imagined a day when I could be with you in those little moments.
At that time when I did not have you near me, sometimes in my dreams I saw you, you looked like the most beautiful image of the universe, a universe different from the one I knew, a wonderful one, this time with many colored lights scattered on infinite sides, one where there were only unique and special beings and just at that moment I understood it, I understood what you had always shown to me.
I understood that really that was always your place, that being with me by our side could no longer support your aura of beauty and infinite goodness, you never belonged to this earthly plane, you were always a special being sent to bring lights everywhere.
Yes, sent to us, your family, the one that saw you being born, leaving and that from that day on had a hard time understanding what it was like to live a day without you, but to which you somehow gave the necessary strength to live the rest of life without you.
I always tried to be the strong one in the family when you had to leave, it was supposed to be my responsibility, I was supposed to be preparing myself to protect you all and I could do absolutely nothing else, so when I lost you I didn't know if I should continue on that path.
Helping others would not make sense to me, if I had not been able to protect the reason why I had decided to dedicate myself to what I had chosen one day together with you. I gave up that day of my life, I did it, I felt broken in body and soul, what I believed in had done nothing, neither for you, nor for my soul.
But one morning I felt an embrace of hope telling me to continue, that even if you were not physically next to me, maybe in that place you would be happy if I continued and that it would be your pride to see me graduate the day I made it.
Many years passed after that and one day after much growth finally what I could never see came to me, I understood that you have always accompanied me, you are like that little light that in the darkness always appears when I am present.
From that moment I felt you more with me and in the dark nights when I am cold and I can't stop thinking about destiny, I always feel you appear and you are with me right next to me, it is like a warm embrace that you give me in my soul, I put my head in your lap and my soul rests.
The times in my life when I have been sadly hurt, I have always felt you by my side reminding me of everything you have taught me. My mission, yes that one that you left me when you left, the one that I learned the hard way, but made me become an expert.
Expertise that many times for myself does not work much, but it serves me to fill the emptiness of many others, with that is enough because I feel shelter and that my destiny was always written, it was not all meaningless, they were not just vagaries of fate.
Yes, that destiny that has always guided me, that has made me move forward even in difficulties, that has lifted me up when I have fallen and that has made me smile feeling that I am always with you when I hear a "I congratulate you" from someone I have helped or read a "Thank you" somewhere, from those to whom I have left a piece of me.
Because, yes, even though at the time it was difficult for me to understand it, over the years I have assimilated it, it ended up being easier for me to put myself in the place of those who go through difficult times emotionally because I had gone through them too.
It is also easy for many to learn from theory and writings that they can read in many places, but it will never be the same for someone to understand you because they have gone through something similar to yours in the past.
For many moments I thought it was a great weakness for me, that my sensitivity was something that should not exist, until I understood that it really is a super power, that you left, but you left it for me to grow.
So today that I have moved on, that I have already decided a long time ago that you are still with me and not in the past, I dedicate this writing to you for all that you taught me and what you made me grow from that instant on.
My beloved sister I hope you are proud of me wherever you are, not so much for the material I have achieved, but for how strong in retrospect I always tried to be to make me and you proud too, your favorite flowers have always accompanied me, so in your honor I place them along this post that I left you, as a promise that when I see you again I will give them to you myself with a strong hug.
隆隆GRACIAS POR PASAR Y LEER!!
THANKS FOR STOPPING BY AND READING!!!
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