Words have power as they say, and the worst of it is that when damaged might take a lifetime to repair. I've seen people consumed by words spoken to them, and even I have been a victim of such. Sometimes these things are not intended, sometimes they cause more harm than intended but every time words are spoken the effects are always on the mind regardless of the intent. This is the reason I prefer being diplomatic in speech. As much as I like being a direct talker, I also prefer that my words are understood without the intent being misinterpreted and therefore I have to choose diplomacy which is usually a longer route for successful communication.
I have seen people break each other with words in the name of saying the bitter truth. While the bitter truth might be good for some, it might also be a poison to others especially those trying to find themselves. I used to have strict principles to guide my every action. I used to feel good each time these principles were applied, but then it hit me bad when I understood that these principles might become toxic to people around me. I could choose not to care about such, but then where is the love I claim to have for them if I can't bend a little for those I claim to love. What use is my love if those around me always have to get hurt by the barriers of principles I put between us.
So one time I decided to let my guard down, which to date I regret at times but I'm glad I did and it made me know the truth of what those around me really felt about me at that time. I was in love but my principles made me decide to keep some boundaries especially in the aspect of physical touch. And the thing about boundaries is that even when removed always feels there for some time and needs some getting used to. Well, I had not gotten used to the boundaries I removed and the girl I was in love with in the middle of a quarrel called me an egomaniac who was afraid to express himself talkless touch a lady. Coming from her and putting my intentions into consideration was cruel and uncalled for, but if I were to be honest with myself, it was the truth.
Sometimes we tend to hide our own truth pretending that if we look away others too would look away but it's not always so. I was indeed an egomaniac who put all these principles in the first place because I was scared of socializing in general and talkless talking to ladies made it even worse. It was easy for the principles to work because I was scared, but once I became ready to face my fears and start socializing I realized how much I needed to hear that particular truth. Although the day I learned about those truths broke me because she wasn't intending to tell me those truths, she was intending to serve me breakfast 馃槀.
