There are definitely alot of things I can't stand, but then the first thing that came to my mind when I saw this topic on the hive learners discord was me remembering I can't stand noise. I may not be able to exactly tell why, I just realized from a very young age that it affects me mentally.
I can remember vividly when I was in junior secondary school, my class was really noisy, so I just started crying, not because I was hurt physically by it, but somehow the only way I could express myself then was to cry. When my form teacher noticed it, he had to take action to get the whole class to be silent. But then many of my classmates couldn't understand what was going no, but I guess my teacher did.
Fast forward to many years after, I still can't get hold of myself in a noisy environment. Whenever I'm working, reading or doing anything serious and the place gets noisy for any reason, I immediately freeze up, which usually takes sometime for me to get myself back. Even when I do get myself, I might not be able to concentrate on what it was I was doing before the noise.
So I try very much to stay away from noisy environment as much as I can. I can have conversations, but when the person I'm having a conversation with start getting loud, it's funny how I just go mute. And honestly speaking when I do that, it's because somehow I feel the persons voice is overshadowing my mind voice making it hard to hear my own thoughts. I've even performed poorly at things I am normally good at all because I was doing it consistently in a noisy environment and gradually it began to affect me. My boss then will normally get upset thinking I was clumsy, and I will always blame myself not knowing what was wrong with me. Well now I know and try to avoid it anyway I can.
Noise is another reason I try to avoid getting into arguments. I can't even remember an argument that I won, because at the end of the day, I will just let the person win.
As a matter of fact, it's funny that in the process of writing this post, I had to put a full stop the the paragraph just above because I forgot what It was I wanted to write there when I heard the sound of a balloon burst. This is how much I can't stand it, and how much it affects my mental health and concentration. Noice is my outmost distraction and I try to avoid it as much as I can. But then it's really hard to avoid it when there are kids around, or when you work mostly around students.
Absolute quietness for me is just bae, and I will do anything to be in a quiet place because it is where am at my best. When I'm in a quiet environment, I tend to think more actively and become more productive in whatever I do.
I'm still trying to deal with noisy environments and will really appreciate any suggestions on how to deal with it in the comments section.
