Overthinking I will say is a gradual process to depression. When you overthink, you forget yourself completely in the sense that someone close to you might be talking to you but because you are lost in thought you won't hear what the person is saying.
Overthinking makes one look unkept and causes weight loss. Reason being that, you won't have time to prepare good food for yourself. You don't mind eating snacks everyday. You sometimes forget to eat lunch or even lose appetite because you are seriously bothered.
This weekly prompts reminds me of an incident when I was still hunting for a job. When it remained some months to round up my NYSC service year, I was gradually searching for a job to sustain myself after the youth service. I tried all I could but there was no positive result. After the service year,I continued going to my PPA (which means Place of Primary Assignment) where I served,thinking I might get an opportunity of a job.
I didn't give up... I kept on going there for an extra year without pay thinking my sacrifice will pay off one day but unfortunately, it did not. Instead, I was being used (I mean I was being sent on errands whether in the rain or under the sun) by my bosses and other workers.
Each time I tried to remind my bosses about the job,they kept giving me the full assurance that once there is an opportunity I would be the first person to be considered and they won't hesitate to fill up my name for the position.
Once I am being assured of having a job soon,the level of overthinking reduced for some times but it got to a stage that I couldn't bear it anymore. Often times,I got some job offers but the pay were not good enough because when I would deduct my transport fare from the salary,I am left with nothing.
With everything happening around me, I was always lost in thought because it was just as if I was wasting my time since there was no positive signal from my PPA. I was seriously disturbed each time I sit to think about it. Often times,I ended up shedding tears because it was discouraging and frustrating. I have over thought to the extent that I began to lose weight.
People around me that noticed my weight loss began to ask what the problem was but I always responded by telling them there was no problem. It got to a stage that I could no longer bear it. I sat down to think of what to do on my own to live a better life instead of working as errand girl just because I needed a job.
So I thought within myself that it was better I learn a skill to be self employed. Then I decided to make enquiries on make-up training. After getting the necessary information I needed,I started saving money for the training. Three months later,I started my training and am now good at it.
My mind is now at peace I no longer lose weight because I am not bothered concerning job employment. I now take good care of myself.
Thanks for reading.
