Looking at my life now, I can't help but see a sharp contrast. I know I mentioned this little life story in my other post, But I wanted to go into it more in detail. So Here it is again:
After getting my appendix removed at age 18 with no health insurance. I was in serious debt; I was a college student. Struggling to make ends meet. I became so depressed that my life was "over." That I would never get out of debt, and I Could never change my life.
The tiny little paychecks I was getting from my full, and the part-time job. Working over 12 hours a day, Wasn't even making a dent in the 15,000 I owed in hospital bills. I also had student loans on top of that.
At that point, I had given up all hope, And I started to dig myself deeper. Wasting more of my precious youth on folding laundry, And being a housekeeper. Instead of doing what makes me the happiest in life, Art.
I think about this always. What if Miss 18-Year-old Kaylin, Threw in the towel? What If I let that horrible experience define my life? What If I allowed that to be an excuse for everything I failed to do?
I would probably be still working there today, miserable as ever.
This was long before I came to Steemit.
Of course, we've all been through crap.
We've all had horrible experiences.
I was 18; I couldn't afford health insurance as a full-time college student.
I could complain all day, About how the U.S. "screwed me." Or it's the government's fault Or my parents. Or the hospital's fault, Because the bill they gave me the surgery was "too high."
I could sit and blame my self for not paying the 200 a month out of the 400 I was making, For health insurance.
I could spend all day feeling sorry for myself if I wanted to.
But at the end of the day
I don't know how many people die from appendicitis these days; I Assume the number is pretty low.
But it doesn't matter if you have a tiny paper cut, Or whatever it is.
You are still alive right now; You GET to live.
You HAVE to move on!
Yep, More ducks lol
Sometimes we think that when we move on, We are saying "It's okay" to what happened. But that isn't the case at all.
It's okay to disagree with the outcome, But moving forward allows you to leave that garbage behind and so you can grow as a person. Moving on allows you not to let the bad experience define you.
Sometimes we do this with relationships too. We refuse to move on Because we are hurt.
I felt this for months after my recent breakup. I'd get angry, over the stuff he did. The stuff I didn't see Because I was blinded by the relationship.
Then it dawned on me, My inability to move on, Only hurts me. Not him.
Moving on allows YOU to stop hurting. It's a GIFT for YOU! Not the other person.
Sometimes I'm baffled over what I've been through. Because I was able to move past all of it.
My life is set up so nicely now; I may never have to "work" a job I hate ever again. And it's so empowering.
Thanks to Steemit I can get paid to do the things that I LOVE, Like Hikes, Bike rides, and drawing.
Seriously! Who can say that?
I get paid to go hiking.
I get paid to go camping
I get paid to do art!
This just proves you really can have what you want out of life, If you are willing to put in the work. That thing that you never thought were possible can be possible. If you told me this would be my life in "5 Years. " My 18-year-old self wouldn't have believed you.
So next time you are going through something terrible, Remember it will pass. Be proactive and try to figure out how to get through it.
