Doing something new is making every inch of my skin crawl - maybe because of excitement or maybe I'm purely terrified. Who knows? This might be a new thing I will be looking forward to.
Hello! Welcome to my Hive Intro. I'm Kristian Klaire, and yes I am a woman. I don’t know why my parents think that putting “Kristian” on my name is ideal for a girl. Maybe because I was born in December? I’m not totally bothered by it, I love the name, it just gets awkward when I go to the remittance center and the lady/gentleman from the counter addresses me as “Sir Kristian”, and I would get up from my seat and the person who called me would say “Ay! Sorry Ma’am”. *insert awkward face here * I know, I know. But the name is pretty, it gives a unique vibe to it, so I won’t complain any longer.
Enough of me for now! Let me share with you all the story of how and why I am here. Months ago, a colleague from work invited me to start blogging since I am a very chatty person. I insisted that I am not fit for this because talking and writing are two different worlds for me. Talking? It’s easy. Writing? It’s a disaster. But here I am, thinking and writing the words I want to say to the readers.
Before I finally decided to start my journey on Hive, I have been reading lots of #HiveIntro. My insecurities spiked up. How can I match their level of intricate words when I myself don’t have a wide range of vocabulary. I easily get discouraged when I look at people who are way better at doing the same thing I do. A friend of mine once told me that I should stop comparing myself to other people (and that’s why I tell other people too), but here I am finding a hard time doing it. That was before, although I still get dispirited every now and then, I no longer blame myself for it, I no longer belittle and beat myself up to it. Instead, I learn, I grow, I’m inspired, and I motivate ME. It’s not about being a competition to oneself, to me, it’s all about me doing better than yesterday.
So with that being said, what should you be expecting from my future posts? I’ve been pounding on what should my intro be. Does it have to be something I am wishing to achieve? Something I’m doing? Something that inspires me? Nonetheless, I have decided to put all the things that I want to publicly share with the world. I am looking forward to posting my song covers here and my journey to living healthy. That includes my attempt to learn a musical instrument before I hit the age of 30, my growing love for all things wooden, my obsession with music, my undying love for food, and maybe sharing a few of my adventures, struggles in life and how I overcome it.
To start with a little bit of me, I am a lazy, unmotivated, and has no sense of determination person. I started hitting the gym again (for the second time around 🥱) last December 2021. I only went there 5 times before Typhoon Odette happened. Looking back at it right now, I wished I could have gone there 10 times before the Typhoon happened. I could have hit those reps and sets more. Oh the regrets! I am hoping to get back to it again early this year, so wish me the best of luck everyone! I badly need the motivation right now!
Truly living in the early twenties is all about discovering yourself. Some say it’s a phase of misadventures, peer pressures, existential crisis, mistakes, regrets, failures, success, goal setting, the desire to crave for more or the combination of everything. As I try to survive this phase in my life, I am discovering more of myself every day. My likes and dislikes. What makes me happy, sad, and angry. What are my pet peeves? What keeps me going? My desires, aspirations, and goals. So if you are like me who is still in the phase of finding out your personality and what you truly want, let it be and pray that it will make sense of someday.
What I do know is that I promote self-love, self-appreciation, and contentment as my way of convincing myself that I am what I declare. I am not a social butterfly, I am awkward at meeting new people, but I do get quirky and annoying when you get to know me. 🥺
So expect that this journey will be an open book of my feelings and maybe, just maybe, I can consider this as my public diary if you will allow me 😂. I hope I can freely share my thoughts and feelings here with you all and learn from people from different walks of life. I am still starting so I hope you will give this amateur intro a chance to get better.
I don’t know how to end this Intro so I guess, that’s it for now! I hope to share and learn more from now on moving forward. I would also like to give a special shoutout to Ms. Pat for always encouraging me and complimenting me every chance she gets. You truly are a woman full of 
