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Credits to @reimondreyes for the instrumental duet

i couldn’t sleep this night, so i decided to look for a video in tiktok to duet, and pick the one i know or should i say a sad song that i can express with what im feeling,

I remember my friend @pencilkhen, he comes over to my place and one of our way of bonding is singing, we take turns to pick a karaoke video on youtube, and when it was my time to sing he commented “I noticed you always sing a song in a painful way, who hurt you?” I just laughed at his comment but it had me thinking, yeah i love singing painful parts of the song, i guess it’s my way of emphasizing the song? hahaha

When my world crumbled down because my ex didn’t want me anymore, I got so depressed. Living was suffocating, i tried not to breakdown in front of everyone so i can’t see the pity in their eyes with what I’m going through, it feels like they’ll just laugh at me if i share.

I wanted to die, i wanted to leave the place that reminds me of my ex, i did lots of stupid shits just to get a peace of mind, but doing those bad things didn’t help either, instead it made things worst. I remember crying in the bathroom thinking “is that person even going through the same pain?”

Yesterday by the beatles Lyrics:

Yesterday love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Why she had to go?
I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong.
Now I long for yesterday.

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why she had to go? I don’t know, she wouldn’t say.

i kept on asking myself, what went wrong? because i didn’t get any answer because my feelings got ignored.

i said something wrong. now i long for yesterday.

Did i say something wrong? because if i did give me a chance to make it right !!! but what? i have answers in mind but i couldn’t pin point which one because you are not saying anything, you just gave up.

Yesterday love was such an easy game to play

I made so much effort just to build the relationship we had, feels like i was such an expert at carrying the relationship, i even thought YOU ARE THE ONE, fear came over me and i wanted assurance, you didn’t say anything so everything got blurry,

Now i need a place to hide away

I let go.

oh, i believe in yesterday

I’m still hoping. (that time)

the current me isn’t hoping anymore though

anyways, i have to admit my tears were falling down from writing this because i had to remember the things i went through,

I CAN NO LONGER COUNT THE TIMES I’VE RECORDED MYSELF SINGING AND CRYING HALF WAY OF THE SONG, BECAUSE IT WAS SO PAINFUL …

@sensiblecast saw my previous sing a long Save the best for last - Sing a long and he suggested, i should put a description of why i sang the song, then i gave it a thought and here it is!

let’s wipe that tears away and call it a day !

THANK YOU FOR READING

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