I'm truly excited writing on the topic Satisfaction, because as much as it takes us down memory lane, recounting our experiences and achievements it is for me quite personal seeing that I can finally celebrate my win of having broken out of my constant disbelief in my self and abilities.
Growing up, i had always put out the confident, I've-got-it- figured-out look for everytime i had to do something or show up in a place but within me was a constant war.
I have had to struggle with the voices in my head constantly screaming that "I wasn't good enough", "I would fail at it so I shouldn't even bother trying".
Even in times I knew that i prepared hard for an interview or a test I still had doubts in my head that I wouldn't scale through to the next phase.
Through all of this, only those closet to me could pick the signals that I struggle with self worth and self esteem. I think I did a pretty good job concealing it with my ever smelling face.
Looking back at where i was and comparing it to where i am now, I almost want to scream for joy because I can confidently stand anywhere knowing that I deserve to be there and I am capable of doing what is expected of me without feeling lesser than anyone. That for me is a big achievement.
I know you might be asking how i move from 0 confidence to a 100 . My most powerful tool was words of affirmation. I constantly reminded myself self that I was enough and had all it takes to hit my goals. I also had little notes pasted close to my bedside and mirror to remind me that I am a big deal and I must get used to it.
So yes I am satisfied in myself, I am satisfied in my abilities, I am satisfied in the fact that I've got what it takes to become all that I desire.