I’m not even going to lie, this week’s prompt made me rack my head a bit. I kept wondering what was expected of me, just how much I should talk about them, and how deeply I should talk about them. This week’s prompt is very introspective, so I hope I'm not too late.
My outward look mostly betrays who I truly am, and also what drives me. The question (paraphrased) was, “why are you here? And what drives the why?”
It’s easy to mix things up, ergo, why I gave it so much thought, and I came to the conclusion that I just want to be happy. That’s the reason I’m here. To be happy and make my loved ones happy as well. I know it seems a bit cliché, but I think about everything I’m doing now. My goals. My passions. What make me get up each day and choose to do the things I’m doing, and all of that just boils down to what would bring me the utmost happiness and fulfilment, and by extension, ensuring the happiness of my loved ones.
I care deeply about the people that I call my people. It’s something I say many times and it’s true. Some of them would think that I don’t have the best ways of showing it. I think that’s due to the fact that they revolve around life lessons, advice, and mostly material things. Watching their faces light up with joy, and their stunned, “Why, Tessa...” is more fulfilling than many other things that would usually bring me joy.
Also, I care about women. I can’t explain it. I value women so much, and I’m always on the lookout for the slightest ways I can impact their lives. It’s crazy how I didn’t know how deep my love ran for the longest time, but as soon as it became clear, it’s like things, from them on, all fell into place. My passion that has bled into gender equality becoming my niche, and women empowerment as an identity I carry on my head constantly.
I’ve got a sweet roommate who has become close to me. From the diverse common grounds we have, she became like a little sister I constantly look out for. A few days back, I found crying deeply over some family stuff. Upon hearing the story, I was filled with a lot of anger on her behalf. I wanted to help so bad. But I knew most of that help had to come from her. One and a half hours later, and I felt peace. She cried again as she gave me the warmest hug I’ve had in a while, and said, “You always know how to make everything better, Tessa.”
And that statement is the core of why I’m here. To make everyone happy, and make everything better. For myself. For my loved ones. And for women. It’s what I always want to do, and who I am as a person. Hopefully, I will always be able to do that.
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