Done and dusted!
Is that the right term for it?
I鈥檓 finally done with my exams and I can鈥檛 even begin to emphasize how happy I am to be done. I made a post on my status that while I was grateful for the academic year, I hope it never repeats itself again. Because one thing I can say about the session that is over, is how trying it was.
This session tested me in more ways than one. In my academics, my social life, finances and everything in between. I saw a lot, experienced a lot, and generally had to survive through a lot, and most of all, I had to do it with a smile and act like everything was okay.
Either way, this is supposed to be a happy post, so I鈥檒l keep it happy. I鈥檓 done with my exams, and the question now is, do I simply relax after a gruesome session? Or do I stay on the grind? Not an academic grind but a grind nonetheless. I鈥檓 saying this because I have responsibilities. I have plans. Things that I hope to do, tasks that I hope to accomplish.
And I need to do these things while trying to enjoy my holiday, while actually staying happy, and having the best time. I don鈥檛 know. I guess I need suggestions on how to balance the both or what I should do, but I really need to make the most of this holiday.
I鈥檓 so happy to get back to life before exams issues, and at the same time, I can鈥檛 wait to see what this holiday holds for me. Got a new friend in the course of this exams, and while there鈥檚 been ups and downs, I鈥檓 loving the connection, I鈥檓 loving the bonding, and I鈥檓 loving the intentionality behind every word, every gift, every thoughtful message. I鈥檓 learning a lot about myself as well. To new connections, and the thrill of the unknown, I guess.
I've learnt to be fully immersed in every moment. But at the same time, how do you live in the moment when your present and more importantly, your future glares harshly at you? There is the fear of failure, which more than anything, rules my thoughts on some days.
So yeah, my plan is to have fun while I can, but see if I can put in enough work to be able to live with myself later, after all the fun, that is. Anyway, I'm beyond stressed and I've not gotten good sleep in the last 72 hours. So yeah, gotta run. Please let me know what you think.
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