To me adulthood is not a scam!
I could have died young on many occasions even before my christening but I was jealousy preserved.
I could have died as a priceless, innocent, naive, lovely girl and stay in the memory of others as a beautiful flower that withered before it bloomed.
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I could have remained a beautiful flower with wonderful bright colors in the memory of others but I was jealousy preserved. Many times I prayed to go, sometimes all I wanted to do was just to go back to my creator and ease myself of all troubles, anxieties, all dreams I've not been able to fulfil, all tears, joy or to even free myself from dreaming at all and anything that symbolizes being alive, but here I am still alive and living my life.
Why preserve me when I genuinely desired to go? Why keep me when I could have left the earth as a perfect and loving soul without blemish?
WHY ?
It's because I'm not meant to just exist, I'm meant to live and be alive while living. I HAVE A PURPOSE TO FULFIL, I HAVE A LIFE TO LIVE, I HAVE LIVES TO TOUCH, I HAVE PEOPLE THAT ONLY MY SMILE CAN BRING TO MANIFESTATION THE LIFE IN THEM AND THEIR BROAD SMILE.
I'M NOT MEANT TO JUST EXIST, I'M MEANT TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST.
Truly, adulthood comes with a lot of fears, uncertainties, trials, challenges, desire to love and be loved, time you will try everything you know and were taught yet no meaningful result at all.
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Truly, adulthood comes with a time that you will be living yet not alive, times you will wake up and not know if you are alive or not, time you will get to work or wherever your destination is and you won't even be able to explain to yourself how you get there, maybe you were carried there or disappeared there, time you will hold on to your last strength and it will seem as if you don't have any strength at all or you are so weak, time almost everybody will give up on you and you will also give up on yourself, time people will look down at you like an 'unserious element' no matter how you try to explain yourself. Such is life and such is adulthood.
Despite all these and many more, adulthood is not a scam to me because I have a purpose to fulfill, I have lives to impact, I have a beautiful glorious live to life. I have a purpose to fulfil and I can only fulfil that as an adult.
Truly, many people died as small kids and that doesn't mean they didn't have a purpose to fulfill or that they were unfortunate in life, no, far from it. The mystery is beyond me and I don't have to delve into what I know has no meaningful point for me.
I've seen people die as kids and though I love them, I miss them, I hope and wish there's something I can do to make them come back to live, the truth is it's a mystery that's beyond me and I have no power over life and death.
So here it is, I'm not everybody and I didn't die young. I'm alive and living according to the volume of the book that's written of me. No matter the challenges that come with being an adult, irrespective of whatever lies ahead of me, I still want to be an adult. I still want to live as an adult and I want to live a beautiful, prosperous and truly fulfilled life. I want to live my life to the fullest for as long as I have the grace of the breath of life.
I want my flower to grow and blossom to become a very big, broad, beautiful, fruitful tree where the hungered can come, eat, satisfied and get revived, where the weak can come and rejuvenate under the shade, where the poor can come and pluck the beautiful flowers and trade as goods to make their life more prosperous, where the orphans can come to and be save.
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I want to be a place of joy and rest for people around me and I can't do this as a small flower, as a kid. I have to grow to become a very big, beautiful, fruitful tree and bloom to my fullest.
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I love to be an adult and I'm grateful to be an adult.
All stage of life from pregnancy comes with its ups and downs, so if adulthood comes with its ups and downs so be it, I will overcome and rejoice.
Nevertheless, no matter what people say, to me; ADULTHOOD IS NOT A SCAM, IT IS A BLESSING AND I DON'T REGRET BEING AN ADULT.
