There are seasons when sunrise and sunset are exactly the same; moments when we don't feel the joy of life... Someone just told me that it's okay to feel bad too, but I don't know if I should excuse myself with that phrase, because ultimately I feel that these low vibrations attract more bad things. I prefer to be the kind of person who is optimistic and focused on only receiving the good things in life... But inevitably there are times when we are broken, moments when all we want is to disappear and not talk to anyone... Moments like this.
Days go by and everything looks the same; it seems that personal goals have been postponed, and not necessarily by ourselves, but by the environment that surrounds us. I know many people feel this way right now, but in the end, only the strongest survive with their sanity intact. I want to believe that I belong to that latter group, and that today is just a bad day, and that's all. The most beautiful things in life are out there, in the little details; today I can't see them, but I know they're there, I'm aware of it. Perhaps the wisest thing to do is to respect them for now, so as not to tarnish them with my feelings, and not to affect someone else's life with the dark cloud that is currently threatening to storm over me.
Better times will come! Perhaps this solitude and my own thoughts will lead me to the most immediate and effective solutions, but for now, I must allow myself to be sad. After all, moments like this have always given rise to the best part of me, through reflection and the search for inner peace. Perhaps tomorrow I'll be able to notice the difference between sunrise and sunset, like that first glimpse of sunlight when I was on a train to Rome, and I was experiencing the best moment of my year...
