I don't really feel like making a song right now. But maybe you don't really feel like doing the next right thing in your life either. I'll help you. So here we go. Jerry Banfield music. Song number 105. Does it even matter if I make a song today? I was thinking, Man, my music sucks. The one thing that sucks about my music is my singing.
Why do I even bother singing. I will just do this like a vlog. I just talk about what's going on. What's the music in the background?
Sometimes all that really matters. Most of the time, all that really matters is showing up in life. So here I am putting in the effort today. I don't know if this will make a difference for anybody or not. I'm feeling ridiculous, feeling defeated. I told my music coach, I said I wouldn't use air beats anymore. So I tried to make a song without AI.
There's AI beat in the background. Turns out I don't know much about making music. I am really good at marketing and I invite you to be willing to do something imperfectly to show up and be okay with it. You might be able to help somebody else by just being real, by being kind, and by trying. Because if you wait till you show up perfectly, you may never show up.
I'm grateful I've showed up consistently in areas of my life that matter like my marriage. I've been showing up consistently. My wife said, Jerry Banfield, making hobbies is not fun since 1984. Music's just a hobby for me. My crypto videos make the money, but this is fun. I'm learning. I'm struggling. You need an area in your life where you're learning, where you're struggling.
You need to always be growing. And if you don't pick an area of your life to struggle and grow in, well, your subconscious will pick one for you. I've learned after years of struggling with alcoholism and addiction, nine years sober, now, that if I don't want to have addictions, I better pick an area of my life to learn and to grow into struggling.
You know what? This is what I'm learning to grow and I struggle and it's hard to make music. When you gave the teacher the Finger a sixth grade music class and didn't learn anything since then, that may have been fine. I was about to turn the computer off and be like, Screw it. Nobody cares if I make another song today.
I mean, literally, who cares? If Jerry Banfield uploads a song today? You know what? I care. I care that I show up and try. If you want to be a better musician, you need to make more songs. You just try.
This is a nice little background I downloaded. I generated. I think this is better than nothing. So I just want you to know I've got a great life. Things go really well for me almost all the time. But that doesn't mean I don't struggle. But it does mean I let my struggles turn into learning opportunities. I'm not having the same struggle I had nine and a half years ago today.
And yes, my struggles look ridiculous. Oh, your day was hard. It was tough for you to make this song today. Yeah, it was. But everything else has been easy. My relationships been easy, my money's been easy. Somebody just paid $199 to have a call with me on my website jerrybanfield.com. I'm looking forward to that.
My daughter got upset because we told her no tablet time after she kicked my son yesterday. That's her learning opportunity.
I'm really glad to be here. I've been real consistent going to my meetings there lots of times. My mind says, Don't do this stuff that's good for you. Don't go to AA meetings, don't go to yoga, Get a new woman. It's fine. You can have new kids. I'm glad. Today I recognized when my mind saying something that will only bring me suffering and pain versus that which will bring me joy.
So doing this song has brought me joy and I hope has brought you joy as well. I love really appreciate you listening to the end very. Jerry Banfield Music show up for your life and see what happens.
Love,
Jerry Banfield in Saint Petersburg, Florida, USA
https://jerrybanfield.com
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