I think a lot, but I don't allow whatever I am thinking to get to me. I don't beat myself up, struggling with each thing to get it done.If it tries and it doesn't work out, I let it go instead of beating myself up about it. The fact is that my head is always in motion the moment I wake up from sleep. I am always thinking of this and that and so many things.
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My brain reminds me of what to do and all about that.The fact is that every human being thinks there is always something bothering us, so we think of situations to get rid of it. We get worried about the future, past, and present, but then I have had a few times when I got so worried it was when I wanted to take my board exams.
The money that comes with it gave me sleepless nights. I haven't told my parents, but with the tension at home, I just couldn't at the moment. Instead, I started thinking of how to sort it myself. I had some money then, but that was my last card, so instead I summoned up courage to tell my parents about it, and luckily enough I got half of the money, and the remaining half I have used the little money I got. I learned a lesson from it: being open to your needs and communicating to it. I am the kind of person that likes to handle my financial problems myself.
A few times I had asked for assistance from some persons; I was snubbed, and that was the last of it, so instead of asking for financial assistance from someone, I tried to solve whatever it was for myself.I learned the hard way, you know that saying, If you finish school, you don't get a dime from your parents. Yeah, that was exactly what happened to me. My parents attention was on my other siblings, so I had to find a way to make some money for myself to take care of my personal needs. After my parents paid half of my board exam fees, that was the last.
I am worried about running out of cash; there was a time I was really down on cash. Most times I didn't sleep at night because I thought of how I was going to go to work the next day since I had no money. I began analyzing my contact list to check if I could borrow money from someone to take care of that, and I so much hate borrowing, especially when it comes to a small amount of cash, but luckily I got someone.I worry about what to cook the next day, especially when the foodstuff is running down. Lying on my bed, you might actually think I am sleeping, but my mind is wandering away, wondering what I could combine together for breakfast the next day.
Sometimes the idea comes in, and other times I will say to myself tomorrow will take care of itself and go to sleep. I'm not a carefree person, but I don't allow my worries to put me down. If I think about it and the strategies don't solve the problem, I will let it go. Nature will take its course.
