Let me share you the birthstory of my daughter Silver Rayleigh. On January 15, 2022 my water break at early dawn, but I just don't feel any labor pain yet, so I decided to sleep again. As I woke up in that morning, I feel that my bag of water is running through my legs, and that's the time that I decided to go to the hospital to have me checked. As the nurse checked me, she confirmed that my water is leaking and I was only 0.5 c.m dilated. So I was admitted there just to make sure that me and my baby is safe.
On that day all I was thinking and praying is that I want to feel contractions so that my cervix will be widely dilated, but it didn't happen. The next day, still I didn't feel any labor pain so I just make myself calm because maybe my baby doesn't want to go out yet. When the doctor checked me on that day, the second day of my admission, she requested an ultrasound to check the status of my bag of water. And again, on that day, My cervix is still at 0.5 cm, and my water is still leaking a lot. And that was the time that I'm feeling hopeless, because most of the pregnant women there already gave birth, and I'm just the only one in the labor room with no means of communication, since it was the hospital's protocol. I prayed and prayed that my baby will be okay at my womb. So the next morning came, it is already the schedule of my ultrasound, I was brought by the ambulance to the laboratory, and I breakdown when the doctor said that I have no water and the baby must be out as soon as possible. I cried on the way back to the hospital cause she is also cord coil. As we submitted the result to the nurse, the doctor immediately gave the cue that I will be going through a cesarean section, because it is already risky on both me and my baby. My feelings were mixed. The feeling that I'm happy and nervous because that was my first time having a surgery. The operarion went easy, but the afterpain makes me feel that I'm dying. But, when I was put together in one room with my baby, I feel the courage again, the feeling of being reborn. It was hard for me to move, but I feel that I was given a lot of energy on that day. For me it was like a contest, and I won the mega prize. All I said after the operation was "Thank you Lord, for giving me the chance to see my baby alive and kicking.
My birthstory was not easy, but it was all worth it. I am now on my 3 months postpartum, and I can say that motherhood is not easy, it is the most tiring job a person could do.
