This post has nothing to do with the amazing movie released in 2006 but my experiences in recent times. And this is also not one of my typical posts with my alter ego, about some random stuff. These are just some words that popped into my head as I wrote.
Nothing to do with the year ending or the new year resolution.
Nothing to do with the mistakes I made or the plan I drafted.
Nothing to do with anything that matters. This is a post about nothing in particular.
These are just words that are passing by.
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“Do I have a point to make in this post, you ask? Maybe, Maybe not. I feel like Morpheus asking Neo to define real. Maybe it is the drugs that the nurse pushed into me through IV. Most likely its the pain meds.
Oh! Yeah, the pain. Its gone. For now. I read somewhere that there are people in this world who like pain. How can someone enjoy such misery? Its no fun. How can some enjoy a constant discomfort in their physical body, the urge to claw out your own body to check whats causing the pain? I know science can explain what happening, how a bacteria can multiply and form a colony. How they all release toxins and cause tissue damage slowly, insignificant at first, Your mind won't even acknowledge the change. And suddenly one day there is a need for a doctor.
Its funny, You go to the person, you probably meeting for the first time and tell him or her about your problem. And you are completely ok being naked in front of the stranger if they ask for you to undress. You tell them about the problem that you are experiencing but unable to explain. While they touch and check you. How is it possible, that I am unable to comment if its a burning sensation or a stabbing? The pain is there but is it radiating from a point or all over the place? This is funny, I am hearing echoes in an open space.
Everything that is happening can be explained through science. But I do not have the time to science. The medicine is effective I can tell. I lost the sensation in the left thigh muscles. And I want to lie down and look at the lights. Ah!! Light, the source of life and everything on this planet. I know the pain will return. It will be around for Hours, maybe days. If I am one of the unlucky ones this could last months or years. This is going to be hell. Ha!! As if we have seen hell. It always fascinates me how we compare things to something that we never experienced. I mean nobody has seen hell, but they still compare their worst situation to Hell. Or heaven for that matter fact, you guys are pair made in heaven and the next thing you know they are getting a divorce and filling court cases at each other. Nobody knows what the hell looks like. I should never compare my situation to hell. I will know hell when I get there. But If I go to Heaven, I will never know hell. Or is there a Hell in the first place? So far it's fictional land.
Wow!! The medicines are amazing. Not only does it take away the pain but also my ability to focus on things. I should be worried about the bills but I think it's been years since I relaxed like this. Maybe this is why people take drugs to escape reality. The sad thing is drugs become a reality. A new reality where you have 100 + 1 problems. I should be focusing on healing, financials, and making sure this doesn't happen again.
That begs the question, how can one focus on multiple things? Or better phrasing if a person is able to do multiple things is he really focused? What is really focusing on?
I feel like laughing. There is no reason for me to laugh at this point. But I feel like laughing. This should not be happening. I should be serious. But I think its the medicines. But why would a pain medication make you laugh? I think the science can explain.”
Please don't take this post seriously. I am ok.
Although I have some health issues. It is not as bad as my imagination. I will be fine.
I wish you all a very healthy and Happy New Year.
May this Year bring the things we are looking for into our life.
Still don't know what that means.
As always, spl thanks to IndiaUnited and BeAwesome community for helping me out.
