No reason to doubt

Human relationships are quite mysterious again, it’s quite complicated too. I said it mysterious because sometimes some bonding becomes strong and deep for no reason and again some bonding becomes weak and fades away with time without having any specific reason. I said it complicated because human thoughts are quite complicated and some people just strengthen their bond with specific person for certain advantages and when they get it, they just stop caring about the bonding as well as stop approving the relationship as they have no reason to continue it. How much impacts it when one faces such a situation? Let me share my thoughts.

In this world I think there are few people only who come closer to us and create good bonding genuinely. In school some created good bonds with me just to be good at studying and so they can take advantage of me in exam time. Later when they saw, I am good at interacting with others, some choose to use me as they are not good at interacting with others. The most ridiculous part is that some only choose to be my friend because I could talk freely with some certain girls they used to like. It’s funny but I could understand their motive even if they tried hard to hide it from me. It was their bad luck that I was good at understanding human psychology. I never thought that such kind of bonding would last for long time, and I never expected anything from them as I knew their approval would be lost, which was just a matter of time. I just gone with them with the flow without resisting, as I didn’t bother myself with it. Why bother myself for such kind of people and their change of mind never bothered me.

Instead of having good understanding, some people are clever enough to hide themselves behind their fake face and pretend to be well-wishers of mine. It was indeed hard to understand that they kept their motive hidden for a long time. I think they deserve credit for being able to hide for such a long time. They just show their true color when they get the thing or facilities they desired for. Such a thing indeed hurts a little and it is hard to believe that, but I don’t allow it to bring negativity for me. I don’t doubt myself for such a thing. I just feel they were very good at pretending, and I should not feel bad for such a thing. In fact, I feel thankful to understand their true nature. I keep such a thing as my lesson of my life.

Another thing or the mysterious thing is losing approval for no reason. In my life there were some people who are indeed very close to me, and I never thought they would go far and their approval for me would fade away with time. In such a case I always tried to figure out if there is any fault of mine for that. If there are no faults of mine, I try to figure out if they have any fault or some motive for what their approval fading away. Most of the time I found no reason for them. I guess it’s because thoughts were not getting along and slowly those bonds fade away and lost for forever and we become like strangers from close friends. It’s something that I don’t blame myself for and nor do I blame them. Maybe it’s fate as nothing can be done against it. And I have a robotic mind, and I can adapt in such situations. As long as I don’t figure out any fault of mine, I never doubt mine and I don’t need approval of others for staying confident and in good condition.