Hi, guys!
Today I'm writing my post quite late, I even thought that I'd better be silent today, but where else I can share my failures and progress? That's my only "long" blog (Instagram is short lol), so I will complain here.
The thing is - I can't understand my body. The thing is - I never had troubles with weight before, and at the moment I'm close to despair. I just can't start loosing weight despite my work out and diet! How do people do it? They don't eat at all and sleep at the gym, or what?
During all week I was eating healthy and made daily work out. I hoped that I would loose at least 100-200 grams, but I gained them instead. What do I do wrong - I simply can't understated. I don't even mention how it affects my motivation - I'd love to have results, even smallest results from my hard efforts, but I have none.
This everything ended up with me becoming dismorphophobic. I simply can't look at myself in a mirror. I remember how I looked before, and now I simply can't cope with the changes. Well, sometimes I can, but these are short moments.
I know I have to focus more on drawing, and on pleasure that work out gives me. But with zero result it's so damn hard! May be someone had the same trouble and can give some advice?
See you in the next post!
Love, Inber
