Hi, guys!
So, I'm having another mental flare-up. I tried my best to avoid this, but first I got physically ill, and now my head is also involved, so now I feel terribly bad and I don’t really understand what to do.
In half an hour I have a call with my psychiatrist, maybe he will say something that can help me quickly. Today I decided to spend the whole day at home, take a break from everything, and most likely I will just read books all day.
We started having blackouts again, over the last 24 hours it happened four times for four hours. But we prepared for this so well that everything is just fine with us, whether there is light or not. We have a lot of battery-powered lamps, so we don't walk around in the dark. And for reading I have a separate special lamp, which saves the whole situation.
It's strange how our psyche works. We in Ukraine are so accustomed to something bad constantly happening that my psyche has learned to enjoy less bad things. That is, I’m really very happy when the lights are turned off, for some reason it makes me feel calmer. Strange, right?
I hope that my conversation with the doctor will go smoothly and that he will not decide to transfer me to inpatient treatment. But I can’t know this for sure.
Wish me good luck? Have a great day!