Happy weekend everyone, how is the weekend going? Today, I will be making my post on the weekend prompt from 
Is there something about yourself that you know you should let go of, but haven’t been able to?
I often hear my parents sing it as an alarm, and my friends always tell me the same thing, shows and motivational speakers encourage it while saying it all the time. That I can be whoever I want to be, that I can overcome any kind of mountain there is, any obstacle is removable, and that all problems are temporal, but does it mean that I believe them, absolutely not.
Fear of failure. The need to be perfect before I show myself which has caused a lot of procrastination on my part, not that I am planning anyone. The inability to move forward has kept me stuck in a place with no plans to move forward.
I dream of a lot of things, of being the best there is in my field, of being someone, certain people can look up to and be inspired.
How do I achieve all of these if I can’t let go of the fear of the unknown, the need to be perfect at all I do before I can show myself, this need has made hide myself curled like a little girl in a corner scared to show her flaws and all there is to me.
I can’t go beyond my limit. Sometimes, it feels like I am not living, like I am only existing but not living like I am stuck doing the same thing over and over again. It affects me so much that it doesn’t really let me push through the mediocrity that seems to be swallowing me up. I want to fight through to achieve my goals, to reach my full potential but once I get to make that first step forward, I don’t know, I take a step back. Overwhelmed by the need to prove that I can be perfect in what I am doing.
Face your fear, they say. How do I face my fears if I don’t even know who I really am? It takes courage to do that which you are scared of the most.
I know it isn’t healthy, but I can’t let go. Somehow, I feel grounded doing what I am familiar with while knowing that there is more to life than what I am used to.
Knowing that I can actually get all that desire if only I would let go of that fear.
Knowing that I am the only person holding myself back. that I am letting the fear be the excuse that I hold onto, denying myself a future of possibilities.
The worst thing anyone could do to themselves is to be afraid to fully be themselves and reach their full potential. You die slowly, afraid that if you jump, you would break a leg, but how would you know if you never took a chance on yourself?
This is a story of my fears.
Thank you for reading. I wish you a splendid weekend rest.
