A while ago, my uncle called me on Messenger to tell something urgent. Then, without hesitation, I gave it to my mom. He was a bit upset since he called my mom for about a couple of times, but she's not responding. On the other hand, my mother was in another call since my parents called each other about their visit in my father's place. He told me that he likes to see me as I only saw him once after he was confined in the hospital. Since I feel like my schedule is a bit slacked, I responded yes. But next time, I need to be focused on my preliminary exam, which I need to review for good. About his condition, I feel happy as I'm seeing his slow recovery.
In more than an hour, we talked regarding about he would finance my studies. As you know, I'm currently a fresh year college student with high expectations and responsibilities in our family. In some ways, I'm glad that I am not focused on my love which is an indication that I am a family-oriented person. To be honest, I'm not yet graduated in college, but they already set high expectation to me as their first-born child. This is a bit pressuring at some point, but I can't neglect it.
My uncle discussed about my allowance, fare, and tuition he will give monthly. I'm happy, but so pressured at the same time. This topic is a long discussion somehow. I forgot the total fees I would pay every semester. At least, even I failed to study in public university I resented before, someone gave me a fallback option to recover. I'm so delight that I have rich and kind relatives from who would help us even my father was still in illness.
After we conferred about my expenses, we talked about my course and dreams in life. He asked me what is the course I take, and I told them that it is BSBA - Major in Banking and Microfinance. I can't lie about it, though. Suddenly, he questioned me why I didn't take BSA that is my big dream since I was in high school.
In our conversation a while ago, he told me that it is better to be practical rather than be satisfied with a small income here in the Philippines. He has a point, though. We have the same aims. Imagine you are working like a slave in the company here, and your salary is still inadequate to finance your kids. Working here in the Philippines was not recommended by the fresh graduates due to its high standards but they'll give you a low salary. That's what also my uncle said.
Subsequently, he interrogated me if our course has a board exam or now. I don't know if the result on Google is right, but it states that you only need to take CSR to pass the course. Meaning to say, it is not that hard compared to other courses that requires an exam. He criticized my course with experience where he says that board exam is an implication whether I'm intelligent or not.
According to him, if I took BSA, he told me that I have a chance to generate hundred thousand of Philippine Pesos per month. If I have that job, I don't need to migrate in other countries as I am already contented with what I can earn. However, that's a big scam since I know a neighbor's daughter who is a CPA, and she told me that she not earning much. I don't have any knowledge on her occupation, so I can't judge her yet.
He asked me again why I didn't take it, and I answered that I doubt myself if I can finish it without repeating again. I was dedicated to take it despite the hardship, but I began to doubt myself after I failed in my dream public university. That is my first choice when I enrolled. After I saw that I failed as what they examined in my past grades when I was in high school, I realized that it is not a right track to follow. If I will follow his advice, it is the most risky decision.
I confronted me that it is my dream, but I discussed some reasons why it is risky to climb. First of all, the survival in this course is difficult as what other states. Secondly, even though you completed your course, there's still a possibility that you will fail in board exam. He told me that I should not be pessimistic about it, but I want to testify that I'm just being realistic. That's why even I don't want, I aimed to settle for less.
Anyway, I can still publish here, but not that much compared before I was studying through blended learning. I am so overwhelmed in my activities, to be honest. Well, we are not yet here in the exciting part.
