HIVE continues to be interesting.
I think one thing people miss is, HIVE is more about YOU than anything else.
HIVE, as a blog form, is a diary. You are interacting on a blockchain. You will be remembered. In real life, history is only told by the winners. On HIVE, you are remembered by what you do.
Some people try to leverage this idea. I do not try to leverage this idea. But HIVE being a diary is something that happens if I want it to happen or not. I cannot stop from being remembered on a blockchain. This is true for everyone.
I think "Hivians" get too hung up on the details here on HIVE. I see people argue about a lot of things on this chain. I see people posting things that are unrelated to the discussion in the comments; I am guessing they know what they post cannot be deleted. I am guessing they know they will be remembered.
So one thing I never want to be deleted is this post. When I made my first post on HIVE, I actually understood what I was doing. I was being myself. I was getting sentimental. @hurtlocker/my-first-blog-post-lets-get-sentimental
At the time I made my first post, "a lot" of people in the PIZZA community thought it was weird. But it was not weird. I was writing my diary.
I have always struggled with addictions. I am not perfect. I am a human. I make mistakes. I have gotten better over the years. But I did not quit drinking. I try to quit drinking a lot though. I joke with with my family and in my real life friends that I am the best quitter there ever was when it comes to drinking 馃槄. One thing that make it hard for my family and friends is I am a lot of fun when I drink and I am very functional. I like to have a good time. I love to party and I do not take my drinking out on other people 'usually'. It is hard for the people that care about me because they like it when I drink because I am a good time but at the same time they are watching my destroy myself which is hard for them. @hurtlocker/let-s-get-sentimental-full-circle
So I recently tried to stop quit drinking again. But I got hit with a hammer by life. I had someone in my life I lost. I was angry. I was mad. I am still so angry. But I will NOT take my problems out on my friends or family. I did my thing when this happened. I became relentless and I never gave up. By the way, the person I lost in my life was a real person and not a crypto person.
When I lost this person, I made money in this trade. But I did not agree to this trade and I never wanted it. I am still so angry. I would give all the wealth I have accumulated through my life to get this person back. I would be glad to be financially poor for the rest of my life to get this person back; I want to be hungry so I can have this person back. I miss this person so much. I am so upset. I am so sad. I am so angry.
But life does not work this way. Life does not care what I think.
When it comes to in real life, I cannot pay to get people back. I cannot get these people back that I love even if I am angry. I cannot buy people back from the afterlife. It sucks and I hate this. I just want them back.....
But I can still celebrate Valentines day.
I still love life. I still remember things. I still have things I can reference. I can love life and reference other things I posted about.... like a HIVE Pizza. To this point, in the past I made a HIVE pizza. It was actually very tasty. I LOVE pepperoni pizza.
@hurtlocker/the-best-pizza-i-ever-ate-the-hive-pizza
There are a lot of haters on HIVE today; I have been in crypto long enough to know this normal. The current HIVE price is hard to deal with for some people. But I have always been here on HIVE since I started. I have always loved HIVE since I figured out what it is.
I did not change. I am not a new person. YOU just never took the time to get to know me.
I have been doing traditional finance on HIVE for a long time. I will make a post on why the DOW is stupid for the TradFi community soon. @hurtlocker/today-is-a-reminder-that-the-dow-jones-industrial-average-djia-is-a-stupid-market-index
I have been being myself for a long time. I just never had a lot of HP in the past. Stake weight matters on this chain.
I love this chain. I think whoever made the original chain knew what they were doing. I think they knew what they created. It seems like it just took longer than they expected.
I do not care how I got here. But I do care about how I am remembered; I am only human.
I think HIVE has a lot of use cases. Most of these use cases have nothing to do with me or what I write. That being said, I need to make money off my recent HIVE trade. If I do not make money off my trade, HIVE is a lie. If I do not make money off my trade, this was a mistake. I do not think it was a mistake and I think I will be right eventually.
This post could possibly be hard for my new followers. But it will be a breath of fresh air for people who have followed me for a long time; I am still here. My HP did not change me.
I do not care about the price of HIVE. But some people do. What needs to change for you to feel like we tried? What needs to happen for you to know this chain is working hard to make you happy? I would like to hear from YOU. Even if you do not like me 馃檪
I believe we will get through this moment. But I cannot promise you I will stay. I can promise you I will ride this to zero. But if the price goes up too much, it will get weird for me. It is already weird. I do NOT like this. I never wanted this relationship with the chain. But I needed to do this. It was time.
I want to continue my TradFi community and start exiting at some point in the future from my main account. But everyone else needs to change for this to happen. I cannot change you. I cannot fix this place. But I have wrote my diary. I am happy where I have left this. This will not be my last post. I will continue to keep writing. I love HIVE. I love the people I am friendly with; I love the people who hate my guts. I am so sorry you had to see this side of me. But this is my diary.
I am glad I powered up HIVE.
