Everyday life throws so many things at us that help us understand who we are better on a daily basis but then it is sometimes overwhelming how we also get to discover a new side of ourselves every time. Sometimes when I react in a certain way to things I just feel like I don't really know who I am. Looking at the prompt for this week, I think it is time I start finding who I am because I most feel like I'm clueless of who I am but I don't think that is true, no one knows me better than me.
When I was a child I remember people always addressing me as a beautiful and smart girl, I've never really related with anyone for a long time that won't try to make me feel like I'm a smart person. Sometimes I try to think why most of them see me as smart but then I don't seem to get any reason, I think maybe it's because of the way I act or talk? I really don't know and when I ask some of them the reason why they say I'm smart, they never give me a reason that convince me but then since most people say I'm smart, then I guess I am.
Most people that I'm close with also think that I'm hard working and I think for this one, I will agree to some extent because I always like doing things to the best of my ability, giving my best is a must! And that is because I want to always get good results in whatever I find myself doing. I discovered I loved putting effort into things when I was really young and that has stayed with me until now.
I totally love the things of God, I got to realize that when it comes to the things of God and his church, I put in this extra effort because I see it as a privilege. The reason is because I know in whom I believe and I know there are a lot of people out there who are yet to get such privilege as I have and that's why I try my extra best to make good use of the opportunity that I have to please God and also bless the life of others.
I'm really good at making friends, there is this joy that I get when I make new friends especially with people that always like keeping to themselves. I always feel like I'm given another task when I see someone who don't like to relate with others but then, there is really not much that I can do, but! like I've said before, I always give it my best shot. It gladdens my heart when I'm happy and others are happy and so it is always my heart desire to make people happy.
I do have anger issues, I easily get angry especially when I'm misjudged and sometimes I ask myself, what is the use of being so angry when I can just walk away and avoid getting hurt further? I've been trying to work on my anger problems for quite some time now and I do see improvements but then I've come to understand that I can't take it away completely so I just learn how to be more tolerant and self controlled.
I think the more the days go by, I get to discover more interesting things about myself. Some are really not pleasant at all and I make sure to work on them by accepting corrections from people and also through studying the word of God. While some are pleasant and I try my best to improve on them also so they won't go away.
Until next time, stay AWESOME!!!