On The Deathbed
Oil on canvas
2020
About losing one's identity during vulnerable times.
We all have our most vulnerable times at one point in life and the worst thing that could happen is losing one's identity. Losing who you are, what you want, what you have worked for. That thing that took you a lot of years to fill in now becomes empty.
The deathbed becomes a passageway to a new life without a vision.
Details
After a few weeks of working on this, I am finally done! I've tried new things while working on this one, such as using a solvent to achieve those drip-effect. I've always wanted to do that, but as you know, solvents have toxic fumes and I don't have a studio to do it safely as of now. So I had to go somewhere open to use the solvents and just bring it back again inside my room when I'm painting using linseed oil again. It's tiresome but worth it.
This painting has another deeper meaning to me, though I want it to be as relatable to everyone else as possible. Not everyone has been hospitalized for sure or has been admitted that it left a big impact on them, but I want this to become a symbol for our weak state... in which I know everyone has been to.
I am happy with the result and I am proud to share this. It's pretty amazing to see how much I've grown since I've been a part of this community and I am grateful for the criticisms, admirations, and support that I have received for the past few years. Hive is awesome. :P