Oh, there certainly is no shame in saying that. I have been struggling with severe mental health problems for a long time and just recently over the past few years have I started to be more open with them. It does start to feel defeating at a certain point though. But, I've been here before, and like you said, we're still standing.

I am working on the small steps. I do feel like I need to change the people I choose to spend my time around. I have let some unhealthy relationships dwindle away over the years, which has been a big relief; however I have not replaced them with any new ones. Living in a rural area with increasing social anxiety certain doesn't help.

But I'm working on it. As much as I can. Thank you again; it's nice to hear some positivity that isn't ingenuine toxic "I'm happy why can't you be" type stuff.

I will definitely look into the engagement post!! I have SO much exploring to do here on this blockchain that I think I need to start keeping a list. I work nights on the weekends but I'm sure I will be able to find some free time during the days :)