When I was young I had friends of my age who lives in the city with relatives but I and some other friends were staying in the rural area, then when those one's who lives in the city comes back home by december for christmas, the rural area that me and my home friends used to walk freely and play everywhere we likes, wouldn't contain us anymore, because the ones who comes back from the city would be splashing us with big big english, and mostly, they would speaks what most of us who were the homes boy's would not understand.
I used to get ashamed and some of my friends who stays around used to gets ashamed either, and my brother has mostly tell me that we should stay away from the city boy's, so that they stop embarrassing us, since we can't compete with them in english, but I was so keen with games in my child age, I couldn't stay away from them no matter what embarrassment I get for not being able to speak in english.
I could not count how many times, my brother shy and leave the playground because the embarrassments of showing up who speaks english and who can not speak english was too much for him to handle, I guess my brother is someone who easily gets hurts but I am not.
Although a time comes when i sit down in the playground and cry, because I did not understand a single thing in what they said, and it was becoming a problem to me, when they take control of the games I used to play and gets happy then bullied me with their big big grammar.
Moreover, I used to fear them because they were making me and the rest of the home boy's to feel like we were nothing, and unless they hold me by the hand, is when I would know that they want me to play with them, we were young and some of us were tougher than the others.
Some of the city boy's used to laugh at me, as they finds out that i could not open my mouth a bit to speak, it was like a battle I used to fight every christmas without the knowledge of my parents, no one in the family knows about what I was going through, except my brother who were our playmate, but older than me in a year.
Then by the time i starts college, my understanding of english was expanding than how it was, as english was widely spoken as a common language then i practice it so well till I became good.
Then i realized that those city boy's who used to mock me for not being able to speak in english, had little understanding in english, because what they speak and brag that they were so intelligent were just roadside english, which I will not even want to used, unless I am in a gathering that roadside english is needed.
This has make me to realized that, those days while I used to sit in the playground and cry, because I could not understand the english they speak so well, those days I was crying over nothing, if it was now, I wouldn't cry a bit because even the city boy's who form for me, is not a match for me in english.
I am not trying to mock them like they do to me, because I should not be like them, what makes me write this post is because, one of that city boy's who used to mock me in my child age had a meeting with me earlier today, he was informing me about his birthday that is coming next month.
He sees how fluently I was in speaking and he was astonished, he realizes even back then, he was not better than me, but it was just where I was raised was affecting me, and when he was taking, I sensed that he was trying to reminds me about how he and others used to mock me because I could not speak in english.
In all is that, he was trying to say a kind of confessions but I told him, not to worry about a thing like that, because it was just childhood things and children's can do or say anything because they do not know about it quite clear either.
