The innocence of childhood without any worries in our world made us feel life was going to stay that way, but almost two decades later, reality began to set in that life isn't always a smooth sail, and we would always encounter challenges, hence worries follow.
Understanding that life will always be filled with one or more challenges should make us take life as it comes one day at a time, do the best we can, and leave the rest especially when these challenges become overwhelming, beyond our control, and too much to bear, but sometimes we can't help but worry especially when no solution is in sight yet, and before you know it anxiety takes over giving us further stress mentally, the reason why there are lot of depressed people everywhere
In the past, I used to be someone who exhausted myself with worry when things weren't going as planned or wished, I got lost thinking about what I hadn't achieved yet, which made me depressed, and I would always want to detach myself from everyone.
But not anymore to that extent, I realized that sometimes sharing my worries with a loyal friend or family sort of relieves all that worry on my chest, they might not necessarily provide a solution, but just granting me that listening ear somehow liberates me.
I guess writing about these worries should have a similar or almost the same effect as well. There are lots of things I worry about, but most of my worries are being able to afford the best life I wish for my children and family, both immediate and extended.
I desire to provide them with every opportunity, every resource, and every chance to succeed. Things I lacked while growing up, not wanting them to face some of the ordeals I faced as a child, and when I don't meet up with some of the things I wish for them, it makes me feel very bad. I feel like I'm failing them like I'm not doing enough.
I know that I'm not alone on this as many parents also share these same worries, as being a parent is not easy at all, we worry about their health, their education, their happiness, and their future, though overwhelming this worry, it is out of our place of care.
The same way I worry about my kids, is the same way I also worry about taking care of my family, mum, dad, and siblings, being the eldest daughter in the house sort of puts me in that position to take care of them and on occasions where I don't meet up especially when asked and it's taking long for me to extend my hands to them it gives me anxiety.
The reason why I determined to work hard to try my best in sorting these responsibilities on my shoulders, not depending on a source of income, I don't see it as a burden, rather I am always filled with joy and satisfaction when I meet up withsomem of these needs, as this is a continuous process.
