I often find myself battling my depression. I lose touch with everything positive in my life and forget my importance to other people. A lot of the time I feel nothing at all. Sometimes, I feel like dying. I have found ways to deal with my depression though. Most of the time, it involves distracting myself with work or playing on my computer. But sometimes that doesn't work and I am left with it. I have found that listening to depressing or sad music helps me through my depressive state and brings some life back to me. I battle myself when social situations turn for the worse. I have contenplated harming or offing myself while at school. But as long as I talk to someone about an unrelated topic; I am fine. It helps just to talk to someone about anything. I turn to friends when I need conversation to make it go away. But as of yet, it seems no one ever answers me. So, I am left alone with nothing but my own will to stop it. So far...I have survived, and any harm that has come to me, has been accidental. But with friends becomming harder to reach, I might just have to do everything on my own. This state has left me unable to do my daily tasks on occasion. At least I'm fine for now...
