You complain me for not being enough social or conversate like normal people.
Irony is, whenever I strived to have a talk with you, I utterly failed. But unfortunately, I yet try to make an effort to have a conversation with you, like today.
And just like always, you are not inclined to listen or discuss and want to skip saying sorry, never happen again...etc
As you know, I am a very logical person and always makes every efforts to reasoning and understanding before I shut the door for anyone.
And I barely get angry.
But if I am angry...you should realize that you have become one of the shittiest persons, not to mention a worse brother to a sister.
And today, I more sad than angry.
You must be thinking I am overreacting MERELY over a phone-call!
God I know you thinking process too well for that!
Here is an elaboration to enlighten you through the background story. Let us talk about the very recent one, so that you understand that I rally am not overreacting.
Read & understand carefully.
My call to you, was on 16th.
For insufficient balance, it was disconnected before I could tell why I had called.
You know I do not have a mobile phone for many days now.
But you did not call me back.
You did not have balance, or maybe you were in a meeting, busy with work. Alright.
I understand.
It can happen.
So, I waited.
Then it's 17th!
I waited for my brother, thought you were very very very busy.
So waited patiently.
Then 18th came and is almost gone.
And I waited.
But you did not try to reach me once.
Not bleeding once.
Not even a free message, wondering why I called so urgently when I do not even have a phone?! So it is given to comprehend for you that I am using someone else's phone, to make a direct call which should imply it is a bleeding emergency.
And now that I reached out AGAIN now, you want me to believe that your-are-sorry?
God bleeding beats me.
That crap is obsolete for so long.
Let me be blunt for you.
You did not call because you did not consider me as a PRIORITY like I DO, dear brother.
And that IS the fact.
Do I not have a professional life?
You do remember when you seek for me, try to reach me, I make sure I am always available for you.
I bleeding manage INTERNATIONAL professionals and in healthcare emergencies, not a random job. Regardless how fucking catastrophic my job life is, I always response to you no matter what the time is, how messed up the situation is.
Was there a SINGLE time you did not get me by your side?
NO.
Why?
Because if you are reaching me out, I very much know that I am your ONLY OPTION.
So I always response.
But for you, it is not the same.
And it has not happened once, my dear.
Not twice.
Many times now.
Your apologies are extremely exhausting.
Every time you want to get by with a sorry, it only makes me realize how insignificant I am as a family, as your sister.
Which pushed me, to came here.
So here is what I have decided.
It feels like a bleeding shit to be treated like this by you.
None other than by my very own precious brother.
Then let us make your troubles gone, shall we?
So from here on, I will not ask for you, nor seek you even if I am in my death bed. No call, no message, never disturbing you again.
I promise.
Of course, that does not mean I am throwing you. You can always seek for me and I will response, so no worries. And I will still love you, be continue to be your sister of course.
But I will stop count you as my brother.
Indeed I know you love me, care for me.
You sincerely do, I know that.
Just like our parents!
All of you love me, care for me. It is just over the decades I am convinced that I have never been into the priority list of you guys. Though I will never be able to comprehend, how can you love someone and they do not belong to your priority list.
Well!
As long as I stopped counting on you guys, I hope it will stop hurting and all of us can live happily ever after.
