Many people are afraid of insects. Especially women do not like when something is crawling around. I read that this is an ancient instinct from our very distant ancestors. I do not know the exact reason for this dislike for insects. But I know for sure that I avoid contacting with insects as much as possible from early childhood.
I was so afraid of insects in my childhood that I did not walk on the grass. Everytime in a park I asked my father to pick me up. I was afraid to put my legs into the grass, knowing that there were insects. And this fear was not causeless. The fact is that the insects chased me! They found me everywhere, and crawled on me. Especially spiders. Especially at night.
One night I lay on my back and fell asleep. The spider came down from the ceiling exactly to the tip of my nose!
Once we were at the sea with my parents and our family friends. We lived 8 people in the guesthouse, and the scolopendra crawled right to my bed. Thank God I woke up and noticed it.
I woke up many times because something was crawling in the dark over me. And no, I did not live in the street, and thanks to my grandma in our house there was an order and cleanliness.
Just wherever I was, if there was an insect nearby, it rushed to me to crawl on me. It was terrible!
While I was child, parents fought with insects around me. When I grew up, I learned to kill insects. It was disgusting, I hated it, the crunch of the crushed insect and its viscous insides on my shoes - I wanted to vomit sometimes. But à la guerre comme à la guerre (in war as in war). I killed all the insects that were nearby. And the more I killed them, the more they attacked me. They managed to catch me unawares at the most inopportune moments.
At night, I defended as best I could. I put my bed almost in the middle of the room, so as not to contact any wall. The footing of my bed I covered with a special chalk through which the insects could not crawl. My bed was my fortress.
But they showed wit in attacks.
One day I woke up at night and felt the presence of an insect nearby. I looked around and saw a creeping point on the wall. I began to watch over it. The insect crawled up. It reached the ceiling and moved to the center of the room across the ceiling. When it was over me, it stopped. I was looking at the insect and I know it was looking at me. The next second the insect fell on me!
The most cunning, fast and nimble insect I've ever encountered with is this monster.
It seems to me the product of love of a spider and centipede. And it would seem, with so many legs of different sizes, how to deal with it? But this monster runs so fast, and he is such a cunning! It's not so easy to kill him. If he runs on the wall or on the ceiling, he can jump for a split second before you decide to kill him. Also he can jump on you!!!
My war with insects was fierce. And then something important happened. I read the books of Carlos Castaneda. It had a huge influence on me, I looked at the world differently. These books changed my mind. And one day, seeing an insect in my room, I took the jar and caught it. And I said to this insect:
"I let you go, and from now I will do the same with all the insects that come into my territory, and insects will not crawl over me anymore." And I let it go.
Since that day, the insects have stopped crawling over me. The only violators of the contract are mosquitoes.
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They can not be caught in a jar, and in this case, I have to kill those who try to drink my blood. I always ask to forgive me for having to kill the violator of the contract.
It's been 15 years since then. All this time our contract with insects is valid. I began to feel much more comfortable about insects. Some I can even take in hands, and not use the jar to let go.
I even admit that I admire the look of insects on macro shots. Their forms are so beautiful at close examination!! I feel aesthetic pleasure when I look at insects on a macro.
But even so, I avoid contact with them :)
Based on my experience, insects have a consciousness. Different from human consciousness, but I'm sure insects have intelligence, some kind of collective consciousness. I believe they are more complicated and intelligent than we think.
Thanks for reading! I will be glad if you like it :)
Sorry for my English :)
