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I felt so alone even though Quinn had traveled a lot before our India trip. I realized that it wasn’t that he wasn’t physically here as I had been through his absence already. The fact that it was confirmed that he’d moved on brought the intensity of finality.
I took a walk around the house by myself and visited every corner, nook and cranny.
I felt the inside and the outside, the upstairs and the down.
It was undeniable that Quinn was here, even though he wasn't!
Everywhere was a piece of him, his essence lingered in, under, over and around everything.
He was in the didge standing in the corner and the leftovers in the fridge. His smell was on my sheets, his dried drips from our shower still on the towel. He was in the garden, and in the hammock. He was in the necklace he made for me that hung on my bedroom lamp. He was on the couch, on the chair, on the floor, on the stairs, on the roof, in the grass, in the sunset and in the air.
He was in the morning and the night. He was in laughter, in my tears, in my heart and in my soul. He was in my mind, in my awareness, and in the fabric of my experience.
What was here of him I didn't want to disturb or erase, as he was all over in my yesterday....
and if I even changed the sheets on my bed, I was afraid he wouldn't be here in my today...
nor in any of my tomorrows!
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